My CPN came over today and we had a chat and she gave me my weekly medication, I have taken my medication today but I hate doing it so much. I really want to stop medication but I know life gets so much harder when I stop. I’ve cuddled Joshua most of the day, and I called my therapist to see if I should go tomorrow and she says yes so I will go and Joshua’s coming with me. I’m scared it’s going to push me over the edge and I may harm but I will try my best not too. I’m struggling to sleep well at the moment, and I haven’t opened the curtains because I’m scared of the weather, it’s really windy and rainy. It’s really scarey. I’ve got to try and stay strong!