Month: February 2016

Slept most of the day again. Went out for a little drive, convinced they have changed my medication due to the dizzyness and restless legs. 

I’m exhausted slept most of the day. Went out for a drive. 

Not pregnant, 😦 feeling physically and mentally ill, actually having some dinner tonight. Dealt with a tesco shop on my own. Exhausted. 

Mixed emotions day. I went to see my brothers and nans grave was peaceful. Also went for a drive with family member got a subway, had a good chat,  

Had a very mixed emotion day. Had therapy this morning which a family member kindly took me, then had an appointment with get fit coach and she told me to leave because she couldn’t help me any more, which really hurt I hate being rejected. I also then went for a long drive with a family member we chatted a lot but came to no different conclusion. I’m really really worried about them. But what can I do, I can’t do anything right! I spoke to mum on phone for an hour was good to have a chat. Now I’m going to sleep, very worn out and emotionally exhausted. 

Today I saw my CPN was useful to talk to some one. Was quite emotional. I met a person from a dating website, it went okay but couldn’t stop being anxious or shaking, so had to leave. I’m scared about sleeping alone, but I’m hoping I can be brave enough and do it. I’m completely alone now! I don’t deserve anyone! 

Had such a rubbish day, called doctors for an emergency call or appointment and they didn’t call back to 8:30pm!!!! So angry and then I was unable to talk to them. I be thought a lot about my future today, it’s really hard to know what’s the right thing to do, so I guess I will have to make some mistakes along the way. I’m scared anxious and can’t stop crying!  

Today was a nice day I went for a walk with a family member and drove there was 30 minutes in the car. The weather was a little windy. Then I changed my room around looks much better, will finish tidying it tomorrow. 

Serviced my car with dad today. Spend the whole day with my family and really loved it. 

Haven’t done much today at all, nothing really to say. Other than feeling a bit low and constantly tired.