Today I’ve been thinking very seriously about euthanasia, and where to get it, and what plans I want to make in preparation for going a head. I really need a break. I got upset because my cats chewed through my special head phones, im scared and feel like I want to be alone, but then being scared that I’m alone. I can tell I’m letting everyone down around me. But hopefully I make the choice to go a head with euthanasia and make everyone happier.