A month until it’s my brothers birthday, I feel very anxious and scared, I did get a good night sleep yesterday and I had some dinner. I’m seeing my acting CPN in about 20 minutes as well as my support worker. I’m very anxious and worried. It’s been 4 years since the family dog fudge got put down, I didn’t realise it was that long ago. I’m very anxious about what decision im going to make next about my life and what I want to achieve, it’s all so confusing, because I’m trying to think about everyone it will effect and I can’t please everyone.