Didn’t do much went to a local shop for some fruit, and watched movies most of the day. Did go on my indoor bike for a bit though.
Woke up to an extra hour in bed. And headed straight to the gym fill so horrible for not exercising yesterday much. I weight my lowest yesterday and I’ve put the weight back on today so I’m determined to loose it, back on the exercising. For the rest of the day I’ve got a drive, walk and cleaning the house to be done. So hopefully a busy day.
Had s really horrible day with my family being mean. I don’t think it was fair. Couldn’t stop crying most of the day. Also planned to harm but my career turnt up, didn’t manage the gym as is shut when we got there.
Could not feel any worse than how I feel right now. This is the lowest I’ve ever felt.
I’ve been put down so much in the last 10 minutes, I was accused of something which I haven’t done, and then told I can’t wear what I want to to a family event. I feel so put down. So low. I think things might be going down the down hill and want to harm, really badly! 😢
Today I had a lay in and now I’ve done some cleaning and tidying. There was mould in front room which I didn’t know so I’ve had a massive clean. Been a little active.
Had a really bad night, and was stressful. Had a relaxed day, went to gym in morning, and had an appointment with my cpn in afternoon. I got the new medication that I’m on only for two weeks, and had a good chat.
I went to a shopping centre with my mum and sisters, had an okay time. Was very busy and constant. Got home and tried to go to the gym but was too busy, and went back later which is good I’m trying to go to the gym everyday for a week and then I will be allowed my new gym clothes. I brought them today.
Last night I had two really horrid nightmares, they’ve made me so scared today. They felt so real and now I’m scared to go to the place where they happened in my dre. The even odder occurrence is when I woke up I was adimentbsoneone was in my flat, I could smell cigarette smoke and I don’t smoke, I believe they were hiding, and they did a good job of it. I could smell them. So now I’ve got to try and forget about all of that and try and get on with my day. I feel in danger.
Had a really good day, first waited in for a delivery and that went okay, then I went up town with my sister, and then she came back to mine and had a lovely time, felt relaxed and like real sisters, I’m so glad we are close again. I love my sisters. Hopefully going to try and end on a high, by going to the gym, and having a little tidy up. Definitely going to call doctors tomorrow about the pain I’m in.