Month: March 2017

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Weight loss plan

My personal weight loss plan… (I will make this work, I have too.) 

Only count calories that I’ve actively burnt. This way I will feel more motivation to keep exercising. 

Do not count resting calories. These burn whether I exercise or not. It’s cheating calculating these. 

Always try to have a -net calorie by the end of the day. Burn more than I eat. 

Your not hungry, you don’t need food, don’t eat!!!

Count every single calorie consumed and burnt.

No late time eating, no snacks. Fill up on water.

Progress pictures of self and scale, pictures of myself in clothes I want to fit. Find clothes that will look good on and buy them smaller. To motivate me to loose weight.

Find clothes out that you want to fit, and take pictures of them. And myself wearing them, so I can see how much better I will look when I’ve lost the weight.

Put weight online, so I’m ashamed and work harder at burning it off.

Try to only weigh myself once a week.

Get at least 6-8 hours sleep.

Eat something tiny to get metabolic burning. Or / and exercise cardio for at least 40 minutes, this will burn my fat through out the day. 

Get up early and exercise, 

Try to complete to do list for the day, keeps me busy and burning calories. 

Always complete step goal for the day. 

Go shopping try on clothes i want to fit. 

Loads of water, water is my best friend. 

Use internet and pictures to not eat, when I get the urges to eat. 

Try more than yesterday, work harder! 

Burn as much calories as possible. 

Focus on loosing weight more than anything else. I have 27 days roughly. 

This is my personal plan. I do not encourage others. 

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Can I trust my scales?

I got on my scales and every time I get on them they say something different. Literally it change each time, between half a stone!!!! 

Yer I’m serious I got on and was gob smacked, It said had “lost” 7lbs, that’s half a stone. Then I got off and on again with them in the same position and it went up and down. Completely changing each time! 

I want to get some new scales, any suggestions on the best/ accurate ones? 

I’ve got dial ones and electronic ones. 

Are ones that do your fat measurement any good? 

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Weight loss.

Can’t say I’m not proud. I am, I just need and want to loose more! I’m not ready to stop!

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Do I risk it? 

I’ve been harming, and meant to have a blood test tomorrow, I’m pretty sure the results will show that I’ve been harming. I’ve managed to hide it from cpn and gp. 

I’m not sure if I’m ready for them to find out I’ve been harming again. 

If I don’t have the blood test my medication has to go down because of they won’t be able to monitor my white blood cells. If they drop too low then if I get an infection it will be harder to fight, and get back to being well. The medication is helping a lot at the moment, and I don’t want that to go back down and feel rubbish again. 

What should I do? I guess they can’t do anything about my harming I keep telling myself but i know deep down they can, if it’s bad they can section me, and I want to stay away from that. I’ve been doing so well I don’t want to go back wards. Only forwards! 

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My first weight Compliment- “you look really slim.”

I know I’ve been trying so hard to loose weight, I think visibly it’s starting to show, although the scales have been the same for a few days but I’m trying so hard. Hopefully this hard work will pay off. 

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Ahhh… my weight!!

I’ve been trying extremely hard this week to loose weight. I’ve been putting in a lot more effort to try and get this weight off, but it’s proving impossible. I’m exhausted, but I’ve got to keep going. Weighed myself this morning and I’m the same weight. I know it doesn’t happen over night, but I’m trying so hard, it’s a bit disheartening when the scales aren’t going down. 

So the plan, carry on with what I’ve been doing, but add to it, get up earlier, work harder, drink more water! Anything else to help?

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Breathe. Amazing magazine!

Yesterday I thought I would go and look at the magazines in my local supermarket. And I was planing on getting one about weight loss and diets, but this one was pointed out to me by my carer. It’s amazing. It’s all about wellbeing and positivity. I’ve never found a magazine so helpful. Much better than talking about diets. 

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Goal weight. Only 20lbs away! 

I have 20 pounds left to loose until I reach my goal weight. 

I made a good start on that today, and I’ve also found the dress I want to reward myself for getting to my goal weight. 


Gives me so much motivation, as I would like the dress really soon as it’s in the sale and I would like it for a specific time. I need to try to loose the weight! 

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Had an exhausting day.

Got up and didn’t weigh myself, but since then weighed myself with clothes and trainers on and I weighed what I did the other day, so in my head that means I’ve lost weight. Will weigh myself tomorrow morning and update. I’ve got 20lbs to loose till I get to my goal weight. Not too far off now, really need to put the extra effort in. 

I did a bit of cleaning and tidying. And spent time brushing the cats, I try and do it every week and they love it. Bless them. Had a move around in the front room and it looks better now. Definitely cleaner. 

Received a parcel and really pleased with it, it’s for my sister who’s about to give birth it’s a bag with some essentials in for the birth, hope she likes it, haven’t managed to give it her yet. Also done a list of everything she could need, hopefully it helps. 


Also harmed again. And actually got a feeling from it this time, I feel satisfied with what I’ve done. 

I tried to tip my vodka down the sink but I couldn’t. So it’s still in my cupboard but going to try not to drink it. 

Done a fair bit of exercise, and toning. I really want to start to love my body. Found a dress I want for my goal weight. 


Looking forward to bed, I’m looking forward to sleep. 

Hope you’ve all had a lovely day. XxX 

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One month until due date.

One month until my sisters due date. Hoping and praying it all goes okay. She has said to me she thinks it might be early, has a feeling. Who knows, let’s just hope it all goes okay. Very proud of her. ❤