I’ve had a lot of upset with baby boys in my life. I think the fact my sister has had a baby girl really impacts on how I feel about the whole situation.
I haven’t held a baby boy since my brother died. It’s a big thing, it was 13 years ago. I’ve found it very difficult to be around baby boys.
When I heard it was a girl my tears that I was going to cry back tracked in to my body and they joy came out.
I’m so so happy for her. She is beautiful and hopefully today I get to have a lovely cuddle with her.
If it was a boy I think I would be wanting to harm, probably still crying and not wanting to see the baby later today.
I hope this doesn’t come across as being rude or ungrateful but it’s just had such an in pact my brother dying.