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New pjs. 

Stop it meow,  love them. 

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What is going on in this world?!?

Why is there so much negativity going on everyday. 

We live once so why kill people and destroy the world. We are so lucky to be here we need to look after the world, there are so many things we can do to make the world a better place and healthier world. There a lot of ways to help the world. 

I just don’t understand why people are so horrible to each other. It’s soul destroying. 

I wish I could live in a world with no harm and no worries. 

It’s getting really horrible. 

If you think about it, it’s a miracle that we are alive, we should be greatful and love our world and each other.

Why come in to this world and set up to kill loads of people, or cause harm to people, you live roughly to 80 years old, why not use that time to help others and make the world a better place for the next generation. 

So I will end it here. Love each other, and make the world a better place! 

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My brother. 💙

Thinking of my brother today as I do everyday. 

Sleep peacefully little one. 

💙

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Break from therapy 

I’m having a two week break from therapy. My therapist can’t do next week and I’ve decided that tomorrow’s session I want to miss. 

I’m weirdly looking forward to the break. I find it pretty stressful getting there and when I’m there I do find a lot of relief in the things we talk about. 

I always come out feeling better, but I’m sure I will carry on after the two week break. 

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Medication change. 

My medication has now changed, still on 1000mg of quetiapine a day, split in to two 500mg doses. And 9mg diazepam, 4mg in morning and 5mg at night. But today pregabline has been added at 75mg twice a day, which if my white blood cells are okay at my next blood test this will be upped. 

I’ve waited for this change for ages and now I’m terrified but also glad. I hope it helps. 

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Awesome inflatables for my sister. 

She is going to be 10 and she is having a beach party in the parents back garden, thought these would go well. 

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Beach, but no motorways, why? 

So this weekend I went to the beach as a passenger in a car, but you might not know the Answer to the title…

Well a few weeks ago I attempted to jump out of a car going 70mph. I had just had enough and so overwhelmed with the voices. 

Since this I have been on a motorway, especially as it was my carer driving both the time I tried to jump out and this weekend. 

I do feel a bit safer but it can change so quickly and it’s impulsive. Although it is mainly from so many things building up on me. 

Anyway it was nice to be at the beach although I was convinced there was going to be a tsunami in the U.K. 

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Puuurfect kitty cats.


I love them so much. They are perfect! 😻😻😻

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My room at night.

This is my bedroom I have a blue wave movement sensory light, and star lights around my board. I also have a night light cat. 

It’s so calming. I makes me feel relaxed. 

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Taylor, please let me in…