It’s been a month, and a massive rollacoster.
I want this to work so bad, and to have a life worth living.
I feel thing were initially clearer until my previous antipsychotic medication was no longer in my system. I stopped taking it a week ago and things seem to be going down hill, currently.
I haven’t put any weight on currently. But my weight is fluctuating daily.
Feel more control about what I choose to eat. This changes sometimes I want to eat everything and then nothing.
having blood tests every eeek is a pain, but I think it might be worthwhile.
I’m starting to get sleepy, which I didn’t have at the beginning, but it’s welcomed a little bit as I hadn’t been sleeping great when I first started.
I feel extremely anxious, and it’s an anxiety which I can’t control.
The worst part…
Feeling like everyone else has control over the medication, I’ve always got to be in control.
What I want you to know starting clozapine
There may be times when you want to quit, but keep at it. You can do this I believe in you.
It’s going to be hard, and I thought I wouldn’t get sleepy or weight changes, or less motivation, but it has changed. It’s been a struggle but I’m still fighting for this best life possible.