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My beautiful cats.

Tiger– 6 today

Tinkerbell–5 two days ago

Taylor– 3 on the 1st April.

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Tattoo time.

Last week…

Tattoo a week on…

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Tinkerbell was 5. (25.2.17)

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Save me from this struggle.

I’ve been struggling really bad the last few days. I’m not 100% sure why.

It could be because I stopped my diazepam cold turkey. I was only on 2mg and had been gradually going do any it was the last move with my medication.

The voices are taking control, I’m self harming more in a way to deal with them. I feel suicidal, and want to hide myself away. I’m hating who I . Im getting lack of sleep. Im very restless. And most of all I’m so anxious it’s stopping me from getting on with my day to day life.

I’ve called my community psychiatric nurse this morning but she was unable to talk so I’m waiting for a call back.

I don’t know what the solution is other than, come off the diazepam slower, or introduce another medication to help with the anxiety or voices.

Meds I’m currently on…

  • 400 mg clozapine,
  • 1.25 bisoprlol,
  • 600mg pregabline.

Any advice from my lovely followers would be helpful. Xx

Stay safe and well, Rosie.

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When did I get this big?

I’ve gone from a low weight to overweight and then normal weight… but guess what Im over weight again.

I hate how I look, I’m really going to try to loose the weight and keep it off this time.

From right now I’m going to try to loose the weight, I want to loose at least 20pounds. I want to be well in to the healthy weight according to the nhs bmi chart.

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I’ve self harmed for years, every scar has a story and meaning. They are evidence of surviving and my life. I had this tattoo designed by scratch, the flame symbolising my brother who’s not here, and all three of my sisters chose a flower. So my arm has been changed from showing my scars and story to the love of my family

Tattoo covering my scars up.

First pic my scars… second the design…the finished tattoo.

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Valentine’s card from my niece

My niece and God daughter, made this for my for my first valentines with her here.

It’s so special. 💖

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Valentine’s gift.❤️

Candle I love.

I’m so lucky.

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I’m struggling I went back to therapy the beginning of this week.

I was really difficult because we were talking about getting a job and life. I was given a weekly chart to fill out what I do and when.

I feel like I don’t need job and carer advice.

I want to have some one away from the nhs, that I can be really open and I feel free to say anything with out being shared in the office.

So I don’t know what to do. I want to go to have a spare person who is there when I need her but, I’m not sure she is thinking the same as me.

How’s therapy going for you?

What’s your experience with therapy that’s not with the nhs?

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Day hospital for clozapine clinic.

It’s the typical Monday I have to have blood test, in the next few weeks it will be changed to fortnightly, which I’m so excited about. I hate having the blood tests, one-they trigger me and two it’s really inconvenient.

But the Benifits I’ve gained from clozapine it’s worth the test.

Have you any clozapine stories, are you on it?

Has it helped you or someone you know?

What diagnosis do you have when you were put on clozapine?

Tell me your clozapine story? Xxx