Should I take my medication?

Things are horrible at the moment,

I’m feeling really low

I’m feeling unwanted

I’m feeling sleepy and I hate that

I’m really fat and I hate my self so much

I’m trying to loose weight but it’s not working

I’m trying not to harm so I can wear shorts and T-shirt in summer with out new scars.

I pulled half my eyebrow off with a face mask and now I look even more stupid

I’m hearing voices that are being very critical towards me

I’m having nightmares every night

I wish I could go out but I’m too scared to alone

I’m very isolated from my family, they never reply to my texts

I’m not living I’m barely surviving

So what’s the point in trying.