Things are confusing, there is a lot going on. I’m not sure where I am or what I am doing!
If you are in the uk you might know we are in a lock down. This causes a lot of anxiety for many different people. I’m scared. This is all new. But we can get through this.
Luckily I have some food but no set meals.
I’ve started to feel this in to set some kind of routine.
My yoga for the mind is not meeting but I got a lovely call about doing it on video call. I’m so excited it starts at 10 and gives me something to focus on. For today anyway.
My support worker called me and gave me a website where they are doing free online courses mainly about recovery and mental illness. It’s something that really interests me. I’m looking forward to have something to keep me busy.
I think this is all going to be so hard on my mental health from the lock down to personal issues!
How can I know what I want but can’t say it, how can I know what I should say and it be wrong! How can I live when I want to die!
I’m struggling I’m trying to be strong and positive but how can I when I feel like this!
I hate moaning but I also hate feeling like I’m being told I’m someone I’m not. I do not think I am manipulative but I’ve been told I am. I hate that word and I was only trying to help, I was trying do to and say the right thing for them. How is that being manipulative.
Anyway so that’s all so random and there is no plan to the blog post, sorry about that. I just had too get it all out.
Please take care! Mental health is just as important as physical health!