Friday 3rd April update.

Honestly I’m struggling. I’m struggling with motivation, loneliness and anxious.

I’ve had a video call with psychiatrist and cpn, that went well, I r had phone calls with my support worker. Turns out I’ve also got a water infection.

I’ve been trying to keep busy but all I can think about is being in my own complexity from the 12th and worrying about not being able to see my mum on her 50th birthday.

I need to keep busy, but I’m so tired.

Taylor’s birthday was on the 1st April and she is now 5. I can’t believe it. I’ve got a 8,7 and 5 year old. I love seeing them growing up. I’m worried about they day when they die, as I don’t think I can cope without them but I love them so much and will treasure them while they are here.

Edit- (They are cats, sorry if I miss lead anyone)

Tags Anxiety, cat, Cats, Emotionally unstable personality disorder, Mental health, mental illness, worry

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7 replies on “Friday 3rd April update.”

Aww so cute! Just keep doing your best. You got this!

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With three children I’m not surprised you’re tired! You’re doing fine! Better than fine! If you’re not hiding under the bed from them, then you’re doing well. Kids are exhausting, particularly young ones. The good thing is that you don’t have any limitations now with time so can just play with them, enjoy them, paint, draw, make things, cook things, read to them, make star charts for their effort and behaviour and so on and so on. I would give anything to have that time back with my boys. I know it’s easy for me to sit here and say just relax and enjoy … but equally don’t be a slave to them. Pop them in the bath together and have a lovely bubble bath and play, but then get them to help you fold the bath mat and put the toys away. (Sorry this is the Montessori coming out in me!!). Don’t worry about your mum, unless she’s sick of course. I’m 50 as well and honestly we can cope! I’m sending you a massive hug and a squeeze and am jealous as heck at the thought of the lovely fun and games with your kids! I’m always here. Katie xx

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