⚠️⚠️⚠️Trigger warning! ⚠️⚠️⚠️
⚠️⚠️ suicide attempts, no food, restraint, poison, rape, self harm. ⚠️⚠️
Last Monday I attempted to end my life, my care co found out and police were called.
I was sectioned under 136 and taken to my local mental health hospital.
The next day I was put in section 2
I’ve appealed and got my tribunal on Wednesday, which I’m scared of.
I haven’t eaten in 2 weeks due to the nhs poisoning my food. I’m able to drink from sealed bottles from outside the ward although I’m limiting what I drink to dry and die.
I also found some glass and started cutting my wrist to get the medication out of me.
I’ve been injected by restraint 3 times and it’s so scary brings back flash backs from being raped.
I’ve been trying to get the blood out of my body so I can get the poison they are injecting me with out of my body.
I’m so scared. Currently the voices are really bad and I feel unsafe. The nhs are trying to steal my DNA. To clone me because I can’t die.
I’ve been here over a week but feels like a few hours I’m loosing track of time.
I’ve barricaded my door multiple times to attempt to stop them restraining and injecting me.
I’m so low at the moment and my head is so busy.
I’ve had a few troubles with family which has lead to me becoming more distressed.
I can’t concentrate much and it’s taken me days to write this.
I’m not ill and don’t need to be kept against my will and medicated! It’s not fair. I’m so scared.
Will I ever get out of here unharmed?
I think Ive lost some weight already from not eating for 2 weeks but it’s not through choice If they weren’t poisoning my food I could eat. I’m scared.