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Is this good for my mental health living back at my family home.

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date April 27, 2020
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I’ve moved to my family home for a while while the lock down is on.

I feel lonely at my flat, I was struggling with my mental health and to keep myself safe but, at my parents I feel just as bad but sometimes worse sometimes better. But either way right now there is no good choice.

I’m struggling so much with

disorder eating thoughts,
anxiety,
ocd thoughts,
the voices, although Gods talking to me is reassuring,
Suicidal thoughts,
self harm.

I’m struggling with a lot.

I’m not sure what to do to help.

I’ve tried…

Sticking to healthy eating,
Drinking less alcohol, although I find sometimes drinking alcohol helps,
Using things in my self soothe box,
Calling the mental health team,
Using the prn I was given,
Using cbd oil,
Relaxation playlist on Spotify,
Podcasts on relaxation and breathing,
Yoga

Is there anything else I can try, I’m seriously struggling and and help would be appreciated?

What I need to do while I’m at my parents is…

Ignore the negative comments,
Ignore the negative behaviour,
Ignore the sarcastic comments and faces,
Ignore the attention seeking behaviour from others around me.

Things will be tough while I’m here but it’s ok, it won’t be forever, I need to remember that.

I can survive this rough patch.

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God is my protector!!

They have no idea.

My parents aren’t my next of kin they can’t call them and tell them anything!

God is my next of kin!

They are so far away from me!

Don’t try and say sorry because you have no idea what the voices are telling me about you!

I’m better off keeping all this too myself!

God is my protector!

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Review on the decade. All the good and bad!

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date December 31, 2019
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Not in any order!

TRIGGER WARNING!!!!!!! ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️

Self harm, inpatient, suicide attempts, rape,

Got a niece,
Turned 18
Passed my driving test
Was sectioned for the first time, so many times after
Had my first blood transfusion
Was anorexic now obese!
Got my own place
Was raped
Got three cats
Being put on antipsychotics
First alcohol drink
First holiday without parents
Sister got married
Got my first silicone baby, Dylan
Started this blog
Been able to eat in-front of people and public
Got closer to extended family
Been to Ireland
Officially got diagnosed with mental health, -schizophrenia, -emotionally unstable personality disorder, -anxiety, -anorexia, -depression, -ocd,
Had a seizure
Done two dance shows
Became a God mother
Went to Florida with my family
Seen many waterfalls
Seen, p!nk, the script, Ed Sheeran, Jess Glynne,
Got 6 tattoos
Dyed my hair purple

My favourite photos from the last decade…

Cake I made for my sisters 25th birthday.

Had dinner on the beach and watched the sunset!

First ever time being handcuffed, hopefully the last!

It wasn’t an arrest, I had done nothing wrong, it was for my safety and to stop me running away!

Tinker bell my second cat as a kitten!

Tiger my first cat and tinker bell cuddling!

Tiger and a cat I looked after for a bit, called Pepsi!

Tigers first car ride to pets @ home! He was so good!

Feeding alpacas!

One day worth of pills!

Overdose treatment!

Sectioned, unfortunately not the last time!

Taylor my youngest cat, now 4 years old!

Tinker bell thinking of getting in the path with me.

My favourite waterfall!

Tiger and tinker bell cuddling!

Waterfall!

Taylor!

Taylor sleeping on me!

Tinker bell!

All three of my cats together!

Dylan my first silicone baby!

My most recent hospital section a month ago!

So I guess that concludes the end of a decade for me! 2010-2020!

It’s been a rollercoaster of ups and downs!

Reached times in my life I thought I was going to die! But some how I survived, but this next decade I’m determined too live not just survive!

I know it’s cliche but I will make this year count!

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Angels will protect you whilst you sleep

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date May 5, 2019
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A pillow case I got from my Godmother a couple of years ago.

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the sanctuary at the hospital.

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date March 29, 2019
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It’s so peaceful,

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Help me… help you.

What do you want? How can I help. My personality helps me be the person I want to be and help others, but how can I help if I don’t know what you want and what’s the best thing to do or say.

So tell me how Can i help?

What do I want? I want to be the person I imagine to be. I want to be known as the person who helps everyone no matter what.

Are we brave enough to tell people what we want and how to help especially as we don’t know each other. But it’s a perfect time to meet, be friends or just someone we know we can turn too.

Achieve-able? I hope.

I guess this leaves me to wait, but remember

I’m here for you.

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The sanctuary.

I look forward to these meetings each week.

It’s a religious based service.

Always brings me comfort. although it’s at the mental health hospital. That alone brings its own challenges me.

But …

I CAN DO THIS.

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At my local church service

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date October 10, 2018
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I’ve listen to the songs that give me peace and hope on the walk here.

It’s a really nice service and it gives me peace.

I need this support right now.

photo I’ve taken near where I live. I think it’s peaceful

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Celebrating a Year out of hospital nearly landed me a night in hospital

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date July 14, 2018
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I was celebrating a year out of inpatient hospital stays, by visiting the beach but… I tripped over a wall nearly straight into the sea. My carer saved me by centre meters. But I’ve really hurt my foot. Photo I took of the sea.