Category: i did it

Got a niece,
Turned 18
Passed my driving test
Was sectioned for the first time, so many times after
Had my first blood transfusion
Was anorexic now obese!
Got my own place
Was raped
Got three cats
Being put on antipsychotics
First alcohol drink
First holiday without parents
Sister got married
Got my first silicone baby, Dylan
Started this blog
Been able to eat in-front of people and public
Got closer to extended family
Been to Ireland
Officially got diagnosed with mental health, -schizophrenia, -emotionally unstable personality disorder, -anxiety, -anorexia, -depression, -ocd,
Had a seizure
Done two dance shows
Became a God mother
Went to Florida with my family
Seen many waterfalls
Seen, p!nk, the script, Ed Sheeran, Jess Glynne,
Got 6 tattoos
Dyed my hair purple

My favourite photos from the last decade…

Cake I made for my sisters 25th birthday.

Had dinner on the beach and watched the sunset!

First ever time being handcuffed, hopefully the last!

It wasn’t an arrest, I had done nothing wrong, it was for my safety and to stop me running away!

Tinker bell my second cat as a kitten!

Tiger my first cat and tinker bell cuddling!

Tiger and a cat I looked after for a bit, called Pepsi!

Tigers first car ride to pets @ home! He was so good!

Feeding alpacas!

One day worth of pills!

Overdose treatment!

Sectioned, unfortunately not the last time!

Taylor my youngest cat, now 4 years old!

Tinker bell thinking of getting in the path with me.

My favourite waterfall!

Tiger and tinker bell cuddling!

Waterfall!

Taylor!

Taylor sleeping on me!

Tinker bell!

All three of my cats together!

Dylan my first silicone baby!

My most recent hospital section a month ago!

So I guess that concludes the end of a decade for me! 2010-2020!

It’s been a rollercoaster of ups and downs!

Reached times in my life I thought I was going to die! But some how I survived, but this next decade I’m determined too live not just survive!

I know it’s cliche but I will make this year count!

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Slimming world, my first day!

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date December 21, 2019
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I was surprised by how easy I found it and how good it made me feel!

I had a salad, with light baby bels and a tiny bit of extra light mayo.

I also had some pasta probably had half of what I would have normally had, with salad and a bit of cheese.

Not pictured was dome melon I had!

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Slimming world, my first day!

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date December 21, 2019
No Comments on Slimming world, my first day!

I was surprised by how easy I found it and how good it made me feel!

I had a salad, with light baby bels and a tiny bit of extra light mayo.

I also had some pasta probably had half of what I would have normally had, with salad and a bit of cheese.

Not pictured was dome melon I had!

Tags calories, diet, exercize, fat, Food, goal weight, Health, healthy, healthy eating, kcal, motivation, Over weight, Overweight, pasta, salad, slimming world, support., Weight, weight gain, weight loss, weightloss, yummy

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Current update.

Things are really tough.

I’ve stopped my antipsychotic again.

Seriously self harmed which has left me feeling awful still days later.

My care team have no idea.

I hate my body so much I’ve started taking diet pills.

I’m scared about slot of things right now. I’m not sure I want to live but if I do choose to live I want to live a life off medication, helping others, being healthy and skinny, I’d like to be nice and have a family I can look after and put first.

But right now I’m so torn, how do I get that good life?

What do I do to be happy?

I would love so much to be “normal” and get up to look after a family and then have an amazing job working with alpacas and children with special needs.

I need this good motivation to stay.

I’m scared to go to sleep in case I wake up and it’s gone.

I’m sorry to all the people I have hurt, I really do love you and will make it up to you!

I promise!

Ok I better wake up and get on with living this amazing life. I can do this!!!!!

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My weekly routine- hopefully!

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date September 26, 2019
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I’m bored during the week so this hopefully soon will be my new weekly routine!

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Psychiatrist appointment

I went to my psychiatrist appointment. It went well.

I’m changing back to quetiapine not amisulpride, which is good and what I wanted!

He attempted to try to assess a diagnosis for Asperger, but it was clear I don’t have that!

I’ve apparently got a New care co ordinator not that I know who or when I will see them.

Accepted to have physical health check, which is a big deal because they will then have my blood!

He also gave me something to help me sleep. Which is good! I need a good sleep!

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