I thought I could hold on to this positivity.
But
I can’t!
I’m struggling so much, so many thing finally broke me and I don’t feel I can take any more!
I’m sorry for the negative post but I guess that’s mental illness for you.
Anything can happen and so many emotional changes!
Mental illness is a struggle.
Self soothe box it is.
I know there is people around me but I don’t feel able to be open and talk about everything that is currently bothering me.
I’m really struggling right now.
I don’t want to bring anyone down with me.
Feeling really low.
Am I ok?
Why do I feel like this. I’m scared.
I’m also surprised about the lack of support.
I’m completely alone. It’s such a horrible feeling.
Yey!!!Hope my posts help someone and allow me to vent all emotions and feelings. I’m a mental health blogger. 
This week has not come to an end quick enough.
I’m struggling with the voices and my thoughts are all over the places
I’m scared and think the self harm is going to take a big kick down that road.
I hate it when I don’t have control.
My family always put up Christmas lights out side the house, we all love seeing them so why don’t we help dad put them up?
There’s enough of us to help him get it done really quick and then, dad won’t be out in the cold for hours.
I think dad is feeling the same this year, because they have just been left up from last year.
We don’t support or help him enough,
I’m sure they will look as good next year, just as they did last year.
Christmas lights,🎅🏼❄️☃️🛷
My bracelet leave me be in red and talk to me on green. It’s soft and nice to wear. It’s easy to swap between sides. It’s a large bracelet and as far as I’m aware they only come in inside, and it’s large, even on me and I’m an adult.
It’s a great way non verbal or verbal can express if they want to talk or not.
It’s a great way to express when they want to talk. It’s neutral so it suites both make and female.
It’s great if you can’t verbalise what you want.
10th September is suicide awareness day, but it’s also my birthday.
I feel really passionate about it being suicide awareness day, I’ve attempted suicide many times, as you’ve probably guessed I didn’t succeed.
I want to help others who feel they need to attempt suicide or are thinking about it.
I can’t say your life will be smooth and that there won’t be struggles because that’s unrealistic, but I can say your not alone. There are loads of charities out there that want to help YOU! And I’m here if you want to talk through how your feeling.
I care.
https://www.awarenessdays.com/awareness-days-calendar/world-suicide-prevention-day-2017/
https://www.samaritans.org/media-centre/our-campaigns/world-suicide-prevention-day
I went in to a subway restaurant while I was away on holiday in the uk. You might ask why is she telling me this… well there was a lady serving us with lots of scars on her arms. I immediately wanted to give her a hug and tell her how brave she is. But why should I treat her any different.
I was judging her they could be scars from something unrelated to mental health.
Moral to me don’t judge people by there cover.
But if you are struggling with mental health issues or self harm, keep fighting I’m proud of you. Your so brave. I’m here for you.
Sending hugs your way. Xxx
My cpn turned up 50 minutes late as it was a home visit. And stayed 9 minutes. A record. Also not seeing her next week because I have an ecg and blood test, so collecting medication from the mental hospital.
I know she is plotting against me all of the above is proof of what’s going on.
Spoke to the reverent at the hospital today over the phone. We talked about harming. Which today I did. I didn’t tell my cpn, she didn’t ask, and I need to stay in control.
I’m not really sure what my plan is from here.
The voices have been so bad, I can control them.
I want no contact with anyone, I don’t trust them! Who can I trust, I’m scared?!
💫 Rosie’s Mental Health Journey 💫 