Mental health

Right now!!!

I wish I was dead.

I don’t know if I can do this.

I’m reaching my limit!

I can’t do this! 😢

Mental health

Why does my family not talk to me?

I’m trying so hard to fit in.

I feel an outsider I’m my family!

No one has anything in common with me!

No one makes the effort to talk to me!

I feel so alone here!


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Long hard week at work!

I’m exhausted, let’s say it that way!

I have a day off tomorrow but I’ve got so much too do it doesn’t really feel like a day off.

I’ve started to get things done today since finishing work at 2:30.

I think I’m making progress and a difference to the young people I support at work.

A smile goes a long way. To them and from them.

I’m so glad to have this opportunity to make a difference to their lives!

I’ve had years of people influencing me, in a positive way it’s now my time to pay it forward!

I love my job most days but I guess everyone has those bad days!

Mental health

I’m not falling for your games.

Your trying to make this all about you.

It’s not ok.

The world goes around and your not the only one on it.

I on I s I’m not the only one too but I’m not the one who makes people feel so rubbish just to get some more power!

Please be more respectful!

Mental health

Rainbows 🌈

Two rainbows, (no filter needed!)

Mental health work

Work update!

I’m so pleased to be writing this blog post, I’ve gone from 6 years of so much struggling with my mental health to job in full time work!

I did my first full week of work and it was amazing. I’ve learnt so much,

I’ve done epilepsy training and safeguarding training, also lots of e training!

I’ve met the younge people and they are so lovely,

I’m a residential support worker for children with autism. And I’m so proud i got to this stage in my life to help others.

I will be doing other blog posts about…

  • Benifits to work,
  • Mental health management,
  • Dealing with your mental health team,
  • Stress management,
  • List of things I do before going to work and what’s in my bag,
  • Dealing with colleagues,
  • Scars and working,
  • There are no limits to your future!
Mental health

I’m going to deal with this alone!

I can do this,

I don’t need to call anyone,

I don’t need to reach out,

I can deal with the emotions this brings up alone,

I’m strong.

I can do this!

Mental health

I hate being told what I can and can’t do with my life, but why do I need reassurance and someone to decide for me?

I think this all goes back to my upbringing,

It was really really tough

Even now all my sister rely on my mum we have too. I do if too, but I don’t want to any more and I’m going to break the cycle!

I’m getting my own life that doesn’t need to be controlled by anyone!

I’m moving in with my life and I hope I can inspire the girls to do that too!

We got this. I got this!

I’m more than being told what I can and can’t write on a message, I need to think for myself and not need reassurance from anyone.

I will a job and I will have a dragon as a pet if I want too.

Im an adult I can’t make the mistakes and achievements in my life and own them. Being responsible!

I don’t care if she is taking the ckntrol and not showing me the letter, what will it change by reading it.

I don’t think I’m cutting them off I think I am just taking control of my life. I will decide what energy I allow in my life!

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Meet my new family member!

Welcome stitch (titch) to my family.


A family member was rehome Stitch (titch) a Rankins dragon.

He is perfect, so cuddly and calming.

I was so brave with picking him up and cleaning out his home. And dealing with bugs.

But I will do it for him. He is perfect.

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First shopping trip since lockdown!

I did it.

The last shopping trip I made to the supermarket was in February 2020.

It was horrible and so confusing, this is when the one way systems care in and all the rules and changes. It caused a panic attack.

I hadnt been in to a shop since then.

But on Sunday. I did it. I went to a shop with support from a family member.

It was still scary but I did it. I felt so good walking out of that shop !

I got some cool things,

Blackjack ice lollies, galaxy bed sheets and an alpaca charging lead.