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Mental health tribunal!

I’m so scared!

Has anyone been through one? What’s it like?

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Ward round update.

I got two hours escorted leave if I take the medication (quetiapine) .

I will take it but I won’t keep it in me. I’m not going to be poisoned by them and be rewarded like a dog!

I’ve got my tribunal next week! They could discharge me!

And if not

I have my managers hearing on the 6th November.

My section is due to end on the 10th November.

I just want to go home.

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I’m so scared.

They are after me I know they are!

I’m not safe anywhere

What can I do?

I need to escape this!

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20 days out of psychiatric hospital!

Yey,

It’s been 20 days out of the psychiatric hospital!

I was in section two for a relapse in my mental state!

I suffer from emotionally unstable personality disorder, schizophrenia and anxiety!

I thought the mental health team were after my dna so I took steps to make sure that didn’t happen, and I ended up needing hospital treatment and then I was sectioned from there!

I’m home now and so glad to be. It’s a luxury compared to being in hospital.

I do miss it sometimes, I miss the contact and the support, I miss there always being someone there to help!

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Spying has not stopped! But I know it’s a delusion!

These were outside my flat, but some part of me still believes they were spying on me to get my dna!

I am scared of them!

I need to ignore the voices!

But currently on my antipsychotic medication I’m able to realise it’s just bad thoughts and they aren’t after me!

I’m currently on amisulpride, but want to go back to quetiapine because the food cravings are extreme!

I wish I didn’t need medication for my illnesses but I do, and I have to accept that!

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Sectioned

This was my room in the mental health hospital.

I was sectioned!

I’m home now!

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Being spied on at the beach

Yellow and black are always spying one me, first wasps and bees then spiders, now, police and people on the beach!

I’m not safe from anyone!

I’m sooooo scared! Save me!

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Blood test-NO!

The mental health team want me to have a blood test, and other physical health checks, but NO!!!

I know they just want the data and results and my dna to clone me! I know what they are up too!

I know I’ve lost a lot of blood over the last few weeks and I’m probably anemic. But I am not having a blood test to find out!

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SPYders (aka-spiders) outside my flat!

I’m serious, these spyders were outside my flat.

I can see the cameras on thier backs.

I know they are spying on me tats why they are called SPYders, instead of spiders!

I’m being spied on.

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Anyone able to help/ support me?

Looking to see if there is anyone who has the same or similar challenge to me that will understand how I feel?

I’m trying to find someone I can text or message that can understand the struggles and someone I can be honest with.

I’d really appreciate it if you suffer with the list below to message me or leave a comment, please.

  • I suffer with….
      • Anxiety,
      Problems with eating nothing or everything,
      Suspicious,
      Paranoia,
      Voices,
      Worries about medications,
      Self harm,
      Worries about getting help or needing it.

    It’s not a criteria. Just a few things I suffer with and would like some support.

    I am under a mental health team but haven’t seen or spoke in months (my choice) and I don’t feel I can be honest with them.

    I’ve been hospitalised many times. And I’m terrified of it happening again.

    The government and mental health team are after my dna to clone me. I believe that they won’t stop at anything to get me. I’ve got a chip in my body where they are able to track me.

    This is really hard to deal with and I don’t know who I can trust.

    I’m scared and would like to talk to someone.