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I tried to jump out an ambulance…

I didn’t end well!

The police were there in seconds.

I got hand cuffed in the back of the ambulance and taken to hospital anyway!

I didn’t achieve anything positive!

I was then in hand cuffs for over 14 hours!

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blogger borderline personality disorder bpd Emotionally unstable personality disorder hallucinations hospital Mental health Mental health act mental health blogger Personality disorder psychosis Schizophrenia Sectioned Voices

I tried to jump out an ambulance…

I didn’t end well!

The police were there in seconds.

I got hand cuffed in the back of the ambulance and taken to hospital anyway!

I didn’t achieve anything positive!

I was then in hand cuffs for over 14 hours!

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Emergency services and triggers

I’ve had so many terrible things happen with the emergancy services being involved.

I’ve never been arrested or in trouble in that sense, just being 136 sectioned by them, which is a section police can use to get you to a place of safety if your in the community and they think your suffering with a mental illness. This has happen countless amount of times. 

It makes me very anxious and had flashbacks when I see them. Even if I know they aren’t coming for me I still get this horrible sinking feeling in my body. It’s terrifying.

I’ve had ambulances pick me up after drinking so much I was unconscious, so many because of overdoses, and times where the courts got involved and took me to my local mental health hospital.

The police have been envolved with sectioning me, I’ve had dog units around me waiting to get taken to hospital, I’ve had them smash my front door down thinking I was harming in my flat, (I wasn’t even in the flat.) I’ve called them for incidents that I thought were really happening but according to cctv there was no one there, I was hallucinating people outside my window with guns. I really thought it was real. I can’t trust anything I see now. 

I get so scared when I see the emergency services especially when the sirens and blue lights are on. 

I don’t think I will ever get over this.