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📱 New care co-ordinator call 📞

My new care co-ordinator called me today.

It’s started ok until I voiced how much I was struggling and what with.

It ended with us discussing discharge from the adult mental health team service.

Which isn’t helpful considering I called them all week asking for some help and support with struggling and because they aren’t sure how to help we end up with discharge being the option.

I’m struggling to accept the concept that I was asking for help and then it end up with discharge.

I guess maybe it’s for the best but then, I received a text from my new care co-ordinator saying

“So sorry that you found our conversation difficult and you need to talk you can contact us.”

I’m so confused!!! I thought I was being discharged, now I contact them if I need them!

Which one is it?

I don’t know what to do next, should I message back asking what is happening is it discharge or can they help or do just leave it as I have been told I’m getting discharged.

I mean I think it might be the best thing they aren’t able to help in the way I’d find helpful, by changing my medication or adding in a prn that helps.

So maybe I’m meant to end my life, this is just another sign it’s the right thing to do. Only problem is I know I can’t die. (My body won’t die) but it’s worth a try right?

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Contacted my support worker, and out come!

So yesterday I was struggling. I texted my support worker to tell her I was struggling. She called me when she could and we had a good chat. I have a good contection with her that I feel able to be honest.

But she said she needed to speak to someone who might be able to have a chat with me, I wasn’t too happy with that because I don’t have many good relationship with the adult mental health team.

But,

This time was different a lady called me and we had a chat, I gave my usual answers of I’m ok, I will be fine but she continued to keep talking too me, asking the right questions so that I was able to give her some information.

In the end we had a good chat and she is calling me again today, it’s good to know I’ve got support even though currently have no care co ordinator or face to face visits because of the covid-19.

Thank you for the time and support from that member of the mental health team.