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I didn’t choose chocolate! 😮

I’m trying to loose weight and be healthy.

Just went to a local supermarket and I didn’t choose chocolate. That’s not like me.

I’m actually proud of myself right now.

Hopefully the scales will thank me in a few weeks.

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Weightloss support me…

I’m really wanting and determined to loose as much weight as possible by 50 days.

How much do you think I can loose and how?

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When did I get fat?

It feels like yesterday I felt thin and was at my lowest weight this year, the next thing I know I’m back into the overweight category.

I hate myself. I see all or nothing.

What I see in the mirror changes everything time even if I saw it seconds ago, it will be different a second later.

I need to get back down to that weight, it means so much to me to try and loose the weight and feel good about myself.

I’m fat, what I see in the mirror is fat, devil, and distorted. It’s scary.

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Reached in to overweight!

I hate myself so much.

I’m so fat and no one can tell me otherwise, I know my weight.

I need to make changes but I really would like support, if your going through weight loss please me.

I’m disgusting, I need to keep moving, I don’t want to be lazy.

I don’t deserve anything nice.

Help me!

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Hey followers, I need your help?

Hey, hope your well? 

Do you have any ideas of tag and catagories I could/should use? I need help want to reach more people. My posts are realated to mental health, and cats. 
Keep fighting. Xxxx

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Day 4 of being sectioned.

My first few days started off okay was a few blips, but I felt with it okay. 

On day two at night things came to much it all built up so much with the thoughts going around and around and the voices taking control that I could no longer control it. I harmed and the alarms were pulled, I did it four times, they had to literally drag me away from the wall. I hate myself for that choice. Since I’ve been put back on level 3 which is where you have no privacy and your followed everywhere, always a member of staff with you one to one. 

Yesterday I spoke to my main nurse she was great and had a brilliant idea of when you get worked up go in to the garden and listen to music, shower etc, some good points which I had not thought about. I have no thoughts of harming I just want my medication to be better and then to get out. I want to do a skydive when I get out to make a statement that I want to live my life to the fullest.

I had my first shower last night, it felt amazing. I’m in clean clothes and I’m sat writing this post hoping they will get a doctor so my observations can be re thought about, I would like some privacy. 

I need my medication to be sorted, there’s no point being here if they won’t even put me on the correct medication. I’m hoping by getting an advocate this will really help. My point just doesn’t seem to get listen too. Feeling a bit confused at what the point of me being here is if they don’t up my medication.
I miss my cats.

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Been sectioned.

I’ve been sectioned under section two of the mental health act.

I was going to a routine appointment with my psychiatrist and cpn, then they went out the room and brought mental health act assessments in. And you guessed it I’m now detained under the mental health act. In a mental hospital that I can’t leave, I could be here for 28 days, one day down. 

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Weightloss 

It’s at a gain, the weight is going up and down everyday day, I haven’t really got a set weight at the moment. 

I think if I stop messing around with medication things and my weight will settle down. 

I don’t want to be fat again. 

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Weight all over the place!

For the last few weeks my weight keeps changing, but finally it’s gone back down to my lowest. It feels amazing. I need to remember this feeling and remember why I am doing this. 

Don’t give up, keep pushing. I will get to my lowest weight by the end of this month. I will succeed. 

I had a dream, it reinforced my ideas of my weightloss, it’s made me motivated. I can do this, I will do this! 

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Weight loss plan

My personal weight loss plan… (I will make this work, I have too.) 

Only count calories that I’ve actively burnt. This way I will feel more motivation to keep exercising. 

Do not count resting calories. These burn whether I exercise or not. It’s cheating calculating these. 

Always try to have a -net calorie by the end of the day. Burn more than I eat. 

Your not hungry, you don’t need food, don’t eat!!!

Count every single calorie consumed and burnt.

No late time eating, no snacks. Fill up on water.

Progress pictures of self and scale, pictures of myself in clothes I want to fit. Find clothes that will look good on and buy them smaller. To motivate me to loose weight.

Find clothes out that you want to fit, and take pictures of them. And myself wearing them, so I can see how much better I will look when I’ve lost the weight.

Put weight online, so I’m ashamed and work harder at burning it off.

Try to only weigh myself once a week.

Get at least 6-8 hours sleep.

Eat something tiny to get metabolic burning. Or / and exercise cardio for at least 40 minutes, this will burn my fat through out the day. 

Get up early and exercise, 

Try to complete to do list for the day, keeps me busy and burning calories. 

Always complete step goal for the day. 

Go shopping try on clothes i want to fit. 

Loads of water, water is my best friend. 

Use internet and pictures to not eat, when I get the urges to eat. 

Try more than yesterday, work harder! 

Burn as much calories as possible. 

Focus on loosing weight more than anything else. I have 27 days roughly. 

This is my personal plan. I do not encourage others.