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Is this good for my mental health living back at my family home.

I’ve moved to my family home for a while while the lock down is on.

I feel lonely at my flat, I was struggling with my mental health and to keep myself safe but, at my parents I feel just as bad but sometimes worse sometimes better. But either way right now there is no good choice.

I’m struggling so much with

  • disorder eating thoughts,
  • anxiety,
  • ocd thoughts,
  • the voices, although Gods talking to me is reassuring,
  • Suicidal thoughts,
  • self harm.

I’m struggling with a lot.

I’m not sure what to do to help.

I’ve tried…

  • Sticking to healthy eating,
  • Drinking less alcohol, although I find sometimes drinking alcohol helps,
  • Using things in my self soothe box,
  • Calling the mental health team,
  • Using the prn I was given,
  • Using cbd oil,
  • Relaxation playlist on Spotify,
  • Podcasts on relaxation and breathing,
  • Yoga

Is there anything else I can try, I’m seriously struggling and and help would be appreciated?

What I need to do while I’m at my parents is…

  • Ignore the negative comments,
  • Ignore the negative behaviour,
  • Ignore the sarcastic comments and faces,
  • Ignore the attention seeking behaviour from others around me.

Things will be tough while I’m here but it’s ok, it won’t be forever, I need to remember that.

I can survive this rough patch.

I need to breathe.
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Wish it was that easy for a fresh start… 😢

But it’s not too late for a fresh view on life!

I can’t do this,,, I can do this, I mean, I have to do this! There is no going back!

I’m scared, I’m anxious and I’m all honest I want to end it, but I have to keep going right, but for what, or who?

It’s all so far away all the things I was looking forward too, what can I look forward too that is in the near future?

💡Any ideas ? 💡

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I apologise… a lot of posts to come. 💕

I’ve been going through draft posts and there is a lot I’m trying to post them so I can catch up!

Hope that’s ok.

Sorry everyone!


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Thank you! 400 followers!

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Merry Christmas from Rosie’s mental health blog.

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Comments and likes mean so much to me!

It makes me feel like I’m not fighting this battle alone!

Thank you to all of you!

My blog means so much to me and the fact that you all take time out of your day to show you stop to look at my blog posts means the world to me!

Thank you again!!!!!!!!

Thank you, yesterday was a good day for views!

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Rosie’s mental health journey, fearless and free!

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What do I want to achieve in year 2018…

What am I going to achieve this year to come… 2018!

  • RED- run every day, the charity event for Mind,
  • Get to my goal weight and stay there,
  • Driving licence back,
  • Get healthy,
  • Visit the gym more often,
  • Be a good sister, auntie, God mother, and daughter,
  • Take more pride in my appearance,
  • Look after my cats better,
  • Tidy more often,
  • Be more thoughtful,
  • Get a voluntary job,
  • Finish the online course,
  • Finished sign language course,
  • Sky dive, indoors and outdoors,
  • Get driving licence back,
  • Buy a car,
  • Yoga classes,
  • Run more often,
  • Visit Iceland,
  • Move or redecorate,
  • Work on my book,
  • Manage money better,
  • Save money,
  • Stay in touch with extended family,
  • Become better at blogging, instagram and more well known.
  • Recovery college,
  • Work with support worker more,
  • Challenge myself,

I’m really going to try, I will put them in a better list.


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Day 23- Why do I blog

It helps me to vent my thoughts and feelings.

I want to help and eventually inspire people who are going through similar or the same situation.

I want to give people a voice and make mental illness less of a stigma.

Your not alone.