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Cpn today’s appointment. 

My cpn turned up 50 minutes late as it was a home visit. And stayed 9 minutes. A record. Also not seeing her next week because I have an ecg and blood test, so collecting medication from the mental hospital. 

I know she is plotting against me all of the above is proof of what’s going on.

Spoke to the reverent at the hospital today over the phone. We talked about harming. Which today I did. I didn’t tell my cpn, she didn’t ask, and I need to stay in control. 

I’m not really sure what my plan is from here. 

The voices have been so bad, I can control them.

I want no contact with anyone, I don’t trust them! Who can I trust, I’m scared?! 

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I can’t turn to the police for help as they are part of the government.

I wanted to call the police about all of the spying and the collection of my DNA but they are part of the goverment, they will be being controlled by the devil as well. I cant turn to any one for help. The people that are meant to make us feel and be safe are actually against me. Im not safe from anyone. Im scared and not sure what to do to be safe. I keep thinking about running away and changing my appearance, will that fool them and will i then be safe. I can start a new life some where else. I need help from all the spying. Im not sure i will get away with trying to run away because i will have to find someone to look after my cats and i have a chip in my body i can feel it moving some times. I know i need to try and cut it out but i haven’t managed to so far. There is no escape. 

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Constant surveillance 

No where is safe, in side or out side. I feel like im always being watched. I cant see any cameras inside but i can feel they are in here. But out side they are everywhere i know people think its to keep us safe and to make sure they can catch any crimes, but in reality they are just following me and what i am up too. I bet there is a massive log of files that watch everything i m doing and everything i have done in the past. They are trying to find patterents about when i go out and where i go. As i am aware of this i am able to throw them off the course, i wont go the same way or that i wont do it at the same time that way, there is no way for them to keep an eye on me and try and predict what im going to do, so this way it makes its easier for me to get away from them and for them not to collect my dna. 

Im in control and im pleased to be able to  say this. They wont have a clue.