Mental health

My cpn is amazing.

I saw my care co-ordinatior today, she was really please to have come second in the staff award ceremony. I nominated her and she going out, she was really grateful.

She gave me theses mints, and asking if I would be worried about her giving them to me. She is so thoughtful. I gave her a hug to show my gratification, I’m not sure if I’m meant to hug her but I don’t care, she is amazing. I’m so grateful she is involved in my care.

If you read this…. thank you.

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I’ve nominated you.

I know you may never find out, but your a brilliant community psychiatric nurse. That’s why I’ve voted for you.

You’ve changed my life in a positive way.

I hope you win. Your the best.

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When will I be better? Conversation with my cpn.

As you may be aware I’m currently diagnosed with anxiety, emotionally unstable personality disorder, and schizophrenia.

These effect my daily life greatly, I can’t go out alone, I’m caught up in self harming, and I hear voices. I’ve been told these are part of my illnesses.

Previously my community psychiatric nurse (cpn) has said that I’m ill, which I think I’m finding it difficult to fully admit to myself. So I thought I’d ask her when will I be better?

She replied, when I can have a fulfilling life, achieve what I want too, and do things with out be terrified.

I agree with her, and it’s got me thinking I want to have plans and achieve things with my life.

  • Be able to go out alone,
  • Get fitter and loose weight,
  • Go to Iceland,
  • Help people,
  • Help out in a charity shop,
  • Go shopping alone,
  • Write a book,
  • Get a job working with children with special needs,
  • Skydive,
  • Run a marathon.

So there just a few things I want to achieve. I want to feel alive.

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Thank you to my care co-ordinator for helping me feel safe.

I know I think your spying on me but I know this is just because of the devil and government making you. 

I kept telling you I wanted help and to feel safe but kept rejecting everything that you would suggest. And that left you feeling frustrated with me, but I was just to stubborn to say yes and in reality I wasn’t even sure what I want. 

And that lead to me being sectioned, and I’ve been in here a week. And I’ve felt safe at times but mainly I want to thank you, even though I was pushing you away you were there by my side trying to keep me safe. I can see this now. I know your just trying to keep me safe, 

I hope you still want to be my care co-ordinator. Your the best one I’ve ever had. 
You know who you are, Thank you. 💐