As you may be aware I’m currently diagnosed with anxiety, emotionally unstable personality disorder, and schizophrenia.
These effect my daily life greatly, I can’t go out alone, I’m caught up in self harming, and I hear voices. I’ve been told these are part of my illnesses.
Previously my community psychiatric nurse (cpn) has said that I’m ill, which I think I’m finding it difficult to fully admit to myself. So I thought I’d ask her when will I be better?
She replied, when I can have a fulfilling life, achieve what I want too, and do things with out be terrified.
I agree with her, and it’s got me thinking I want to have plans and achieve things with my life.
- Be able to go out alone,
- Get fitter and loose weight,
- Go to Iceland,
- Help people,
- Help out in a charity shop,
- Go shopping alone,
- Write a book,
- Get a job working with children with special needs,
- Run a marathon.
So there just a few things I want to achieve. I want to feel alive.