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🧘‍♀️ Yoga Tuesday. 🧘‍♀️

I did it, I feel exhausted and confused but I did it. It went ok.

I got quite dizzy and after I’ve slept a few hours after, but it was good to do something for me and something that’s different.

We focused on something that was positive, even if the moves we were doing were hurting, I found that quite difficult to focus on something positive and that made us happy, but I saw a butterfly in the garden and that helped to think a bit more positively.


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I attempted female kick boxing fitness class!

I did it I walked in.

I was brave.

It was hard work!

But guess what…..

I did it!!!!!

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How to tone/ get rid of my inner thigh?

I’ve been loosing weight but my inner thigh gets in the way.

It rubs and they catch on each other every time I move!

What can I do to tone it up?

Will it go down and not bother me?

It makes me feel disgusting, I need to do something about it, any advice will be greatly appreciated.

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I’m loosing weight so why are my clothes tighter?

I’ve lost over a stone in the last few months.

But every time I put on some clothes from my wardrobe they feel tighter.

They are uncomfortable, why is this?

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It’s not your fault your fat but it’s your responsibility to do something about it!!!!

I’ve been told this yesterday.

It really hit home that I am fat.

I let myself get like this.

I ate too much.

I drank too much alcohol.

I didn’t exercise.

I didn’t go to the gym.

I didn’t drink enough water.

I am now very fat and overweight.

It’s my responsibility to do something about it!

I need to loose this weight.

I need to be healthy.

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Weight loss

Yesterday if you read my posts you would already know so I’m sorry for repeating myself.

I had a blood transfusion yesterday and now I have a bit more energy and motivation to get up and loos the weight I’ve put on in the last few months.

I’m not going to lie I have been drinking alcohol and eating really unhealthy foods, so the weight gain is completely from the choices I’ve made.

So I’m trying to make more positive choices. I thought if I’m honest with my online community I might be more honest with myself about what I’m eating. Especially if I get changed on to clozapine. (Which is well know to have weight gain as a side effect.)

Okay. Here goes…. this is my weight. I’m so embarrassed. 😩

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When will I be better? Conversation with my cpn.

As you may be aware I’m currently diagnosed with anxiety, emotionally unstable personality disorder, and schizophrenia.

These effect my daily life greatly, I can’t go out alone, I’m caught up in self harming, and I hear voices. I’ve been told these are part of my illnesses.

Previously my community psychiatric nurse (cpn) has said that I’m ill, which I think I’m finding it difficult to fully admit to myself. So I thought I’d ask her when will I be better?

She replied, when I can have a fulfilling life, achieve what I want too, and do things with out be terrified.

I agree with her, and it’s got me thinking I want to have plans and achieve things with my life.

  • Be able to go out alone,
  • Get fitter and loose weight,
  • Go to Iceland,
  • Help people,
  • Help out in a charity shop,
  • Go shopping alone,
  • Write a book,
  • Get a job working with children with special needs,
  • Skydive,
  • Run a marathon.

So there just a few things I want to achieve. I want to feel alive.

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Skydive, and anemia.

When I came out of hospital and off my section, I said to myself, I will do a sky dive to feel alive and free.
This is turning out to be complicated as there's a fair amount of paper worries. And work on my body. I need to have normal blood results but I've very anemic levels of blood.

Iron tablets, I try to take but the does I'm prescribed makes me feel really odd, and especially sick, I hate the task it makes me taste.

So it looks like I've got a little bit further to get up to a healthy range.

I'm trying my best.

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62 days until I want to reach my goal weight.

So I’ve got 62 days which in my head doesn’t sound a lot it makes me think about every little choice I’m making about food and drink.

Current I’m in an acute mental health ward, after completely loosing touch with life. I will admit now that I’m on the right medication I can see how things are and it’s pretty scary. I’m sectioned under section 2 of the mental health act. I still have 16 days on my section, but I’m hoping I will have my tribunal really soon so I can get out of here.

I’ve learnt my lesson don’t stop or mess around with medication.

Anyway back to the weight loss plan…

Well I don’t really have one. I don’t know what I should do, should I follow my own diet plan? Or something like slimming world, I really have no idea.

Any help appreciated.

What I do know I’m going to do.

  • Medication correctly everyday,
  • Caffeine products,
  • Low kcal or no kcal drinks,
  • Drink at least two litres everyday,
  • Aim 10, 000 steps a day, which is difficult in a small ward,
  • I’m not aiming to starve myself, but I know I need to eat less than I burn,
  • When I get out of here gym three times a week,
  • Try to eat as healthy as possible,
  • Weigh myself once a week I think Fridays.

Any other suggestions please help me, I’m aiming to loose a lot of weight.

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Keep fighting. Xxxx