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Weight update.

I wish I could call this weightLOSS update, but I’m afraid that I’m heavier than I was this time last year.

I loss 50 lbs altogether and now that’s all back.

I really hate myself for that.

So I guess I need to put a plan in place to get back on that track. I’ve already made a good start to that with stopping alcohol. But I’m still eating loads of really unhealthy foods, and too much of that.

I also feel so tired at the moment and not able to exercise as much as I want.

My white blood cells are low and I wonder if that’s effecting me making me feel sleepy, if not then I really don’t know what to do and what’s going on.

Any help or suggestions would be very helpful.

So my weight is… 150lbs

With a goal of loosing 50lbs.

Help me loose weight.

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Trying to go to the gym.

I’ve been trying to go to the gym, when I go I feel good and it feels brilliant to be getting the endorphins from exercise. I never regret going to the gym, I just regret not going.

I keep finding excuses, or I drink alcohol.

That’s what I’m fighting right now. I’ve put on weight and I feel low and bad, I want to go to the gym tonight, but I’m expecting a delivery and I really want to drink the alcohol so I can say it’s all gone. Plus alcohol in the short term would make me feel better.

I will get to the gym but I need motivation, if my weight gain isn’t enough motivation, I don’t know what will.

How do you motivate yourself?

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I’m disgusting, I’ve put loads of weight on! 

I hate myself so much right now! 

I don’t deserve to get anything that I wanted, or had planned too. So that food shop I was planning is not going to happen. 

I need to be punished for this weight gain. I need to tell myself it’s not acceptable. I deserve to suffer, I need to exercise as much as I can, and not eat! 

I do not deserve the luxury of food, I’ve got enough fat on my body to survive for years. 

I’m so angry at myself, I really can’t think of where the weight had come from. I don’t go to the toilet regularly, which could contribute a bit, I wouldn’t say it’s water weight as I didn’t drink water yesterday.  Is it because of my medication being upped, is it not enough exercise, I need answers?

I’m so angry and annoyed I need to be punished. I will make sure I get the pain I deserve. 

I HATE MYSELF!! 


I know my weight is horrible! Help me loose weight, please? 

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Weight- gone up!! 

Although both my scales say majorly different. I hate it. I just want to be able to weigh myself and trust the scales that, that’s my weight! 

This week, starting today is going to be so strict, I will loose this weight. I need to loose a stone by the end of April. 
How am I going to do this?

I know you think it’s impossible, but I’m going to work so hard and not give in. 

I’m going to go to the gym, and make sure I definitely do my steps, drink at least two liters of water, and do a minus net calorie. 

Prune juice, help keep everything moving, that’s been my massive problem, 

Exercise will be my daily steps, extra exercise of any sort is a bonus and I will be trying to go to the gym. 

 Water is really important, I’m going to drink as much water as possible. 

I’m going to keep my medications the same everyday, and roughly the same times. 

And going to try to get at least 8 hours sleep each night. 

Weigh ins will be limited to once a week, if I can stick with it. I think I will go and weigh myself one more time then put them away until next week.

I’m so embarrassed about putting my weigh in here, but it needs to be done to motivate me!

My stats: 

Height: 5″4

Weight: 137.2 lbs/ 9:11 stone / 62.2 kg

BMI: 23.4  ( yes I know I’m fat.) 

Okay scales are now away next weigh in will be on Monday. Wish me luck.