I thought it was going to be a lot easier than I’ve actually found it.
I’ve been very lonely and started to use old coping mechanisms.
Today is the first day I’ve felt in control.
So I’ve worked through my todo list, and now I’m having a bath, and listening to my favourite songs.
I’m starting to look after my appearance.
My job has moved a lot further, both references are done and the occupational health assessment has been done. I’m waiting for the report of that to come back and then a start date.
I’m scared in case it doesn’t happen and go through because of my mental health but I feel 100% ready to do this job.
I’ve seen my family this week, which I will admit has been pretty stressful, but it was still nice to see them.
I’ve been the the animal therapy farm and had a cuddle with a ducklings. I had an amazing time.
I’ve started to work on loosing weight and getting healthy.
It’s been so lovely seeing and BBC spending time with my cats.
So overall I think things are going ok and I can’t wait to start living not just surviving!
Monday I got call asking if I would got to a job interview for Tuesday! (The next day) I only sent in the application on the Saturday!
I was so scared it was my first interview in six years!
My first proper interview!
As I was walking in to the interview it started to snowing, it was touching my face and I knew it was a sign from heaven!
I was really anxious!
But guess what I did it!
They verbally offered me the job!
I accepted!
I’m waiting for an email to confirm it!
I’ve got a job!
I’m so proud of myself. For the first time in my life, I’m proud I me!
Mental illness can not stop you carrying out your dreams! You may believe it does.
I believed it did but it doesn’t. You are in control, put in all the hard work and you can reach your dreams!
Dreams do come true!
Mental illness is not a barrier it is just a hill you have to climb up and over to reach the other side!
I’m not going to lie it’s really difficult but YOU CAN DO IT!
I believe in you!
I’m always here to talk to.
This blog has always been about my journey and recovery but I never ever believed I would get to the stage in my life where I’m able to start living not just surviving!
Life is worth it, you are worth it!
Mental illness does not stop you being who you want to be or reaching your dreams!
My first job was helping my dad, but my first paid job was at a cafe, I was a waitress.
My dream job is to work with children with special educational need and mental health problems. I had a taster of this through school as it was work experience. It was an amazing two weeks.
My dream job isn’t unachievable, I just need to get my mental health under control. I will have my dream job.