Leaving the past behind

I know the past means it’s gone, but how do you leave the past behind and move on when so much of it is holding you back? 

The thoughts, nightmares and flashbacks, all creeping up on you when you least expect it and when you finally think you are getting over it. 

Why is it that dates that traumatic events happened bring everything to the front of your mind? Just when you think your learning to cope with it, and then it takes over your whole mind. 

I’m trying not to let it bother me but I think everyone can tell it’s killing me inside. It’s the dates soon of something bad that happened to me and getting me down so much, it’s effecting all my thoughts and actions. I don’t think I will ever be able to explain how it’s eating me up. 

No one will ever know the pain I went through and still going through. 

Anxiety Uncategorized


Last night I had two really horrid nightmares, they’ve made me so scared today. They felt so real and now I’m scared to go to the place where they happened in my dre. The even odder occurrence is when I woke up I was adimentbsoneone was in my flat, I could smell cigarette smoke and I don’t smoke, I believe they were hiding, and they did a good job of it. I could smell them. So now I’ve got to try and forget about all of that and try and get on with my day. I feel in danger.