My last piece of food was the 31st December 2019 at 8 pm.
I’m going too see how long I can fast for!
But I’m sure it won’t be long enough!
I need to shift this weight as soon as possible!
My last piece of food was the 31st December 2019 at 8 pm.
I’m going too see how long I can fast for!
But I’m sure it won’t be long enough!
I need to shift this weight as soon as possible!
It’s a very addictive feeling.
I was going to cave in yesterday and eat but I’m so glad I didn’t.
The longer I hang on and not eat the more weight I can loose hopefully.
I’ve tried the whole healthy eating and exercise and I don’t find it works for me.
I was only eating one meal a day, which was dinner and I would fast the rest. I didn’t find I was loosing weight.
I want to loose as much weight as possible in the next 2 weeks. I’m going to a concert and I want to feel a bit okay with my body.
I hate myself so much right now!
I don’t deserve to get anything that I wanted, or had planned too. So that food shop I was planning is not going to happen.
I need to be punished for this weight gain. I need to tell myself it’s not acceptable. I deserve to suffer, I need to exercise as much as I can, and not eat!
I do not deserve the luxury of food, I’ve got enough fat on my body to survive for years.
I’m so angry at myself, I really can’t think of where the weight had come from. I don’t go to the toilet regularly, which could contribute a bit, I wouldn’t say it’s water weight as I didn’t drink water yesterday. Is it because of my medication being upped, is it not enough exercise, I need answers?
I’m so angry and annoyed I need to be punished. I will make sure I get the pain I deserve.
I HATE MYSELF!!