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I’m fasting!

My last piece of food was the 31st December 2019 at 8 pm.

I’m going too see how long I can fast for!

But I’m sure it won’t be long enough!

I need to shift this weight as soon as possible!

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41 hours in to a fast, I feel so light and floating.

It’s a very addictive feeling.

I was going to cave in yesterday and eat but I’m so glad I didn’t.

The longer I hang on and not eat the more weight I can loose hopefully.

I’ve tried the whole healthy eating and exercise and I don’t find it works for me.

I was only eating one meal a day, which was dinner and I would fast the rest. I didn’t find I was loosing weight.

I want to loose as much weight as possible in the next 2 weeks. I’m going to a concert and I want to feel a bit okay with my body.

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I’m disgusting, I’ve put loads of weight on! 

I hate myself so much right now! 

I don’t deserve to get anything that I wanted, or had planned too. So that food shop I was planning is not going to happen. 

I need to be punished for this weight gain. I need to tell myself it’s not acceptable. I deserve to suffer, I need to exercise as much as I can, and not eat! 

I do not deserve the luxury of food, I’ve got enough fat on my body to survive for years. 

I’m so angry at myself, I really can’t think of where the weight had come from. I don’t go to the toilet regularly, which could contribute a bit, I wouldn’t say it’s water weight as I didn’t drink water yesterday.  Is it because of my medication being upped, is it not enough exercise, I need answers?

I’m so angry and annoyed I need to be punished. I will make sure I get the pain I deserve. 


I know my weight is horrible! Help me loose weight, please?