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Things haven’t been going to plan!!!

I’ve now currently been on section 2 in an acute psychiatric ward for three weeks, leaving the ward once to go on escorted leave with staff.

Yesterday I got some good news that I’ve been waiting months for… my dbs check is done and it means I’m a Step closer to starting the job, that’s if they still want me! I really hope they do it’s my dream job.

I need to start focusing on the positives not just the negatives.

On Thursday I have a discharge meeting in ward round with my care co. So hopefully I can be discharged on Thursday although I doubt it as they don’t like discharging at the end of the week but my section runs out a week today. So I hope something gets sorted quickly!

I’m having some really unusual dreams at the moment.

I’ve decided I’m going to stick with having the depot haloperidol as it works for me and I need to be well for work.

I don’t know if you can tell but I’m quite excited about this as I’ve been waiting months…

Only down side is I’ve lost my driving license for 3 months. :/ so I will have to figure a different way to get to work if it starts before then.

I think things are going to be ok, I really do!

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Struggling once again.

I’m struggling,

Thought things would be okay but once again got really stressed!

I’m not sure I can do this.

How do I stay strong and fight for a better life.

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Things I’m looking forward to after lock down ends.

This lock down is playing havoc with my mental and physical health.

I’m struggling so much with everything. The every day little things are becoming so hard.

So when this lock down is over, I’m looking forward to…

  • Seeing my family,
  • Spending time with my niece,
  • Meeting this guy I’m talking too,
  • Shopping trips without worry,
  • Summer round my parents,
  • family bbq
  • going back to yoga
  • Starting work
  • Going to creative writing,
  • Swimming,
  • Visits to the beach,

Am I think I will appreciate these moments much more than I did before all of this.

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I’ve moved in with my parents.

Ok so an overdue update…

I’ve moved back in to the family home in my 20’s this feels like a major set but but it’s not, I’m doing this as it’s best for me and my mental health.

I’m taking responsibility.

It’s going ok. I’m hoping to get some craft things finished and spend time with my family.

My cats haven’t moved in because their dog would eat/hurt them so I’m going back every day to spend time with them and feed them of course.

It’s going ok, it’s only been one full day but I think it’s ok, I struggle at night with wanting to go home but it’s ok I know I can if I want too and it’s a few minutes away in the car.

This is the best for my mental health. While I get myself back on track.

I’m finding old things difficult again though my eating is changing, I used to have anorexia and a few things have brought back those negative feelings. And there is a lot of stress at the moment but I’m dealing with these by trying to eat even though I don’t want too and I’m listening to mindfulness podcasts on Spotify.

I’m finding these really helpful the positives are my drinking alcohol has decreased and my mood has increased.

I’m determined to loose some weight while I’m here and I think I can, but I think I need to remember that I’m trying to do it to be healthy and not anorexic again.

How are you all? Xx

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What am I grateful for today?

Ive been feeling a little low over the last few days, but it won’t last things will get better!

I’m grateful for…

  • My cats, they always cheer me up,
  • That my bathroom light came, I can finally have light at night,
  • And I received a sheet from what would have been the Easter spiritual service, and received the beautiful cross in the picture.

I’m adjusting to life and having to have a good think about what I want for life!

I know that I’d like to be happy, I’m looking forward to my job starting so excited, I’m excited about meeting this guy I’ve been talking too when the lock down is over, and I’m looking forward to seeing my family altogether!

Received in the post today from my chaplain.

Tough times don’t last but tough people do!

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Contacted my support worker, and out come!

So yesterday I was struggling. I texted my support worker to tell her I was struggling. She called me when she could and we had a good chat. I have a good contection with her that I feel able to be honest.

But she said she needed to speak to someone who might be able to have a chat with me, I wasn’t too happy with that because I don’t have many good relationship with the adult mental health team.

But,

This time was different a lady called me and we had a chat, I gave my usual answers of I’m ok, I will be fine but she continued to keep talking too me, asking the right questions so that I was able to give her some information.

In the end we had a good chat and she is calling me again today, it’s good to know I’ve got support even though currently have no care co ordinator or face to face visits because of the covid-19.

Thank you for the time and support from that member of the mental health team.

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👋 Hello Monday, new beginning! 💕

Hi,

It’s Monday again, if you think about it we are lucky to be here it’s a blessing another chance to start over, another chance to make a change and another chance to make a difference!

I hope you all have a fantastic week and stay safe and well!

I’m going to try and remain positive in such an uncertain world. 🌍

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Making key rings!

I’m keeping busy and making key rings for anyone in the uk struggling. Bringing a bit of positivity to these uncertain times!

I’m going to be giving them away completely for free!

💕 Spreading some love! 💕

Just message me your address and I will send you one. Xx

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First week in lock down.

I’ve been told this isn’t much difference to the life I gave myself before hand, but actually it is!

I used to go to mind groups, farm therapy, appointments with my care team, over to visit my family when ever I wanted too, that’s not the case now.

I know people keep saying you aren’t stuck at home your safe at home, but I don’t feel safe, I don’t feel safe from what’s going on inside my mind, or all the thoughts and difficult situations I’m now currently in.

I’m hoping this won’t last too long, I’ve heard a few dates being said and it’s a lot long than I originally thought it would be.

It’s scary too see and hear so many people getting ill and dying.

I’m scared, this is so out of my control but I’m going to try and focus on the positives…

  • Had a care plan review over video chat with my psychiatrist and cpn,
  • Did yoga with video chat,
  • Started some crafts,
  • Having more time to think and focus on my life,
  • Having time to tidy,
  • Been out for a walk,
  • Feeling like I’m finally starting to accomplish things that I’ve wanted to for ages.

So it’s not all negative here.

Later I will show you key rings I’ve made for anyone struggling. Can’t wait to share them. I’m going to be sending them completely free to anyone wanting one.

Book from the therapy farm I use to go too.
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Friday 13th update. 🐓 🦙

This is my chicken I caught and named.


Today I stepped things up a notch.

I drove to anormal therapy. That’s the first time, so I went from support worker taking me then carer, then taxi then bus now I’m free to drive myself there!

Little steps all count. It all adds up to positive changes.

I’m quite proud of myself if I’m honest.

My dad said he was proud of me too, that meant so much too me!

Recovery is worth it, things are going well but of course there are tough times but I can do this. I know I can!

💫 I’m going to do this! 💫

Alpaca 🦙 from therapy!