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Mental health

Long awaited update…

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Things are really tough.

The voices are controlling me at the moment.

Telling me to harm myself and run away.

I have been asked to go inpatient but I said no I will loose my driving licence.

I’m scared.

I want this to end.

I was given 7 day supply of diazepam to help but it really isn’t helping!

I want this all to end.

The sun is trying to burn me and I need to get more energy to fight it off after all I am God I should be in charge but the voices are taking over.

I’m harming myself in new ways. And I’m scared.

Honestly I do want to die but that’s difficult if you can’t die.

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Is this good for my mental health living back at my family home.

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date April 27, 2020
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I’ve moved to my family home for a while while the lock down is on.

I feel lonely at my flat, I was struggling with my mental health and to keep myself safe but, at my parents I feel just as bad but sometimes worse sometimes better. But either way right now there is no good choice.

I’m struggling so much with

disorder eating thoughts,
anxiety,
ocd thoughts,
the voices, although Gods talking to me is reassuring,
Suicidal thoughts,
self harm.

I’m struggling with a lot.

I’m not sure what to do to help.

I’ve tried…

Sticking to healthy eating,
Drinking less alcohol, although I find sometimes drinking alcohol helps,
Using things in my self soothe box,
Calling the mental health team,
Using the prn I was given,
Using cbd oil,
Relaxation playlist on Spotify,
Podcasts on relaxation and breathing,
Yoga

Is there anything else I can try, I’m seriously struggling and and help would be appreciated?

What I need to do while I’m at my parents is…

Ignore the negative comments,
Ignore the negative behaviour,
Ignore the sarcastic comments and faces,
Ignore the attention seeking behaviour from others around me.

Things will be tough while I’m here but it’s ok, it won’t be forever, I need to remember that.

I can survive this rough patch.

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👋 Hello Monday, new beginning! 💕

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date April 6, 2020
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Hi,

It’s Monday again, if you think about it we are lucky to be here it’s a blessing another chance to start over, another chance to make a change and another chance to make a difference!

I hope you all have a fantastic week and stay safe and well!

I’m going to try and remain positive in such an uncertain world. 🌍

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Truthful update.

Sorry about lack of post, I’m struggling!

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I’m worried about so many things…

I worried I’m not good enough for anyone,
That I will never achieve the life I want,
My weight, being so high.
A guy telling me I’m fat, I know I’m fat but being told it is painful!
About getting the coronavirus,
worried I will never have a family, children,
Worried the job won’t go through, like something go wrong,
That I don’t do good enough for mums 50th or Mother’s Day,
That I should have put more effort in to dads 50th,
That I’m going to relapse in to self harm or alcohol,
That I might crash my car,
That I feel sleepy but don’t feel like I’m getting enough sleep,
About money, I am so lost,
About how I look,
About not finishing my nieces scrap book for her birthday!
I will never be good at life or living!
I’m a failure!!!!!

So if you got to the bottom of all of that you deserve a medal. 🥇

What can I do to help all these worries? I’m so lost! XxX

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20 days out of psychiatric hospital!

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date September 22, 2019
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Yey,

It’s been 20 days out of the psychiatric hospital!

I was in section two for a relapse in my mental state!

I suffer from emotionally unstable personality disorder, schizophrenia and anxiety!

I thought the mental health team were after my dna so I took steps to make sure that didn’t happen, and I ended up needing hospital treatment and then I was sectioned from there!

I’m home now and so glad to be. It’s a luxury compared to being in hospital.

I do miss it sometimes, I miss the contact and the support, I miss there always being someone there to help!