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Things haven’t been going to plan!!!

I’ve now currently been on section 2 in an acute psychiatric ward for three weeks, leaving the ward once to go on escorted leave with staff.

Yesterday I got some good news that I’ve been waiting months for… my dbs check is done and it means I’m a Step closer to starting the job, that’s if they still want me! I really hope they do it’s my dream job.

I need to start focusing on the positives not just the negatives.

On Thursday I have a discharge meeting in ward round with my care co. So hopefully I can be discharged on Thursday although I doubt it as they don’t like discharging at the end of the week but my section runs out a week today. So I hope something gets sorted quickly!

I’m having some really unusual dreams at the moment.

I’ve decided I’m going to stick with having the depot haloperidol as it works for me and I need to be well for work.

I don’t know if you can tell but I’m quite excited about this as I’ve been waiting months…

Only down side is I’ve lost my driving license for 3 months. :/ so I will have to figure a different way to get to work if it starts before then.

I think things are going to be ok, I really do!

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Ive got 24 hours until ward round!

Im anxious about it. Last week he said “you need to be on an antipsychotic, but I don’t mind which one as long as its one.”

I choose quetiapine because it’s been ok in the past and I can’t keep being threatened with injection as you can’t inject it.

I took it twice in the last week and managed to go on leave.

I refused to come back so my leave had been removed.

Tomorrow in ward round I’m asking if I can be discharged. If this was a real hospital they would discharge me because I’m not ill and refusing treatment.

My section end on the 10th if he doesn’t discharge me! So I will be going home then. I’m not sure if he can extend it or what could happen if he wants me to still take the antipsychotics?

Anyone know the procedure if he refuses to discharge me?

Can they keep me in?

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Topped up my drinks, psych ward.

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Ward round update.

I got two hours escorted leave if I take the medication (quetiapine) .

I will take it but I won’t keep it in me. I’m not going to be poisoned by them and be rewarded like a dog!

I’ve got my tribunal next week! They could discharge me!

And if not

I have my managers hearing on the 6th November.

My section is due to end on the 10th November.

I just want to go home.

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Dylan with me in hospital.

I’m very lucky I was able to keep my little boy with me in the acute psychiatric hospital.

Love his cuddles especially when I’m struggling.

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A&e for concussion!

Had to go from the acute psychiatric hospital too accident and emergency for concussion!

I couldn’t open one of my eyes because it was so swallen. And had a big bruise and cut after harming for 5 hours straight and staff not helping even though they could see I was distressed.

I had a CT scan but was all ok so after a night in a&e I’m ok just concussion.

Appreciate the Harry Potter pjs.

I didn’t run away, mainly because I had two staff with me and my cousin, I know I could have but hopefully if I behave I can get leave in ward round on Thursday.

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I was thirsty

I’m in the psych ward but only drinking from sealed untouched bottles.

I love Pepsi max, if you couldn’t tell.

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Update… sectioned!

Sorry for lack of updates and the long post!

I’ve been sectioned on section 2 of the mental health act.

I’m not 100% sure why other than refusing antipsychotic medications!

Since being in this psychiatric hospital on a locked ward I’ve escaped twice and needed escorted to a & e by two members of staff due to concussion!

Day one I was in seclusion with a rip proof dress and blanket, NOTHING ELSE! I was stripped naked in front of lots of staff restraining me! I was in seclusion because I was upset and angry about being in hospital. I was there for over 5 hours in a locked room! IT WAS HORRIBLE!

I only managed to get out if I accepted to take Olanzapine and my other night medications. They said if I didn’t take it I would be injected! So I took it.

I was then showed to my room, EVERYTHING searched! I will admit they were useless I’ve got things I wouldn’t allow a patient to have, but I’ve been strong and not used them yet!

I then threw up the medication on purpose but I don’t think I got it all because I started getting really sleepy and dizzy! I started walking around the ward shouting I want the antidote! I then fell asleep.

When I woke there was spyders everywhere, I was terrified! I don’t know which ones were real. There was one in the light which I think I’ve already posted a photo of!

I don’t remember much about the first week, I know I was scared. I was throwing up the medication, refusing to eat and drink anything that wasn’t sealed and brought in from outside the hospital!

Currently I’m taking all the medication that is prescribed and I’m eating and drinking from sealed drinks and foods.

In the first week I’ve been restrained a number of times, from escaping from the first door and hurting myself due to the voices being too overwhelming. They kept threatening to inject me but thankfully they haven’t!

I am Appealing my section and I’ve met a solicitor.

Care plan is interesting as since I’ve read it it says diagnosis is paranoid schizophrenia but earlier in the week I was told I no longer have a psychotic illness, so I’m not really sure what’s going on or whats wrong with me, if anything!

The Voices have been pretty bad. I’m struggling to cope with them, but I’m using prn (lorazepam) and writing all the time. I’ve always got music playing!

Visions are starting me in not sure what is real or not.

Spying feels like it’s got worse probably due to the fact the hospital I’m in I think we’re and are the ones spying on me.

I will try to keep updating regularly.

Hope your all ok! Xxxx

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27 days of no serious self harm

27 days ago I was admitted to a psychiatric unit, and since that day I’ve not seriously self harmed!

I’m doing so well!

I want to get to the stage where I don’t have to self harm at all!

I know I can get there.

I can do this!

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Sectioned day five 23 to go? 

I had Ward round yesterday, didn’t go as planned I was 100% hopeful I was going to be discharged. I was on level three someone with me at all times. I went in to the ward round believeing I was going home because all the staff that had been me told me I could probably go home. So going in there and coming out with better medication plan, and a plan to possibly someleave if my level two goes okay, so now I’m only checked every 15 minutes, but honestly they don’t keep to that they do it when ever they want roughly around once an hour. So I finally have Privacy to go to the toilet,  it’s seriously a luxury.

It will only take one stone to fall and destroy all current progress.