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Mental health update.

So I haven’t done a proper mental health update for a while and as it’s coming to the end of the year I’m going too do an update.

I have been sectioned twice in the last few months. I’m now out of hospital after a pretty traumatic time in there!

Since coming out of hospital I’ve stopped my medication.

I’ve put on three stone since being inpatient and put on medication.

I was eating all the foods I fancied and this made me gain so much weight so quickly as well as basically sat on my bed all day everyday. Also put back on too antipsychotic medication.

So since I’ve came out of hospital I weighed myself and I was so shocked! I’ve started diet pills and my gp referred me to slimming world which I start tomorrow.

I’ve stopped the antipsychotic medication and I’m currently doing ok. I’m going to my meetings, keeping myself active everyday and trying to push though all the bad thoughts and voices!

I went too a private Therapist to start therapy but I’ve decided I want to wait a bit. I’m not sure if I’m ready to talk about my past and trauma, even though I feel it’s holding me back!

Unfortunately I’ve started drinking too much Alcohol. This is probably not helping with my weight!

I’m looking forward to Christmas this year! I’m trying to make it a brilliant time for my family! I know it’s going to be really tricky and I’m going to get upset with my mums behaviour, but I want to make my family happy so I’m going to try my best to stay strong!

I’m really trying so hard to get along with my Family!

So I guess that’s where I’m up too!

I hope you all have a good Christmas and stay safe!

I’m here for anyone if you want to talk or struggling!

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Current update.

Things are really tough.

I’ve stopped my antipsychotic again.

Seriously self harmed which has left me feeling awful still days later.

My care team have no idea.

I hate my body so much I’ve started taking diet pills.

I’m scared about slot of things right now. I’m not sure I want to live but if I do choose to live I want to live a life off medication, helping others, being healthy and skinny, I’d like to be nice and have a family I can look after and put first.

But right now I’m so torn, how do I get that good life?

What do I do to be happy?

I would love so much to be “normal” and get up to look after a family and then have an amazing job working with alpacas and children with special needs.

I need this good motivation to stay.

I’m scared to go to sleep in case I wake up and it’s gone.

I’m sorry to all the people I have hurt, I really do love you and will make it up to you!

I promise!

Ok I better wake up and get on with living this amazing life. I can do this!!!!!

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Struggling so much

I feel so alone and scared.

I don’t know bc what I’ve done wrong for my sister to not want to spend time with me, last week she was messaging me and seeing me loads, what’s changed?

I just want to go back to old habits.

I feel so lost.

I’m struggling with feeling everything I think or do is being monitored and tracked.

I’m so paranoid.

The voices are really distressing me.

The self harm thoughts are increasing.

My weight is going up and not down!

I’ve got so much I need to do but feel like I’m loosing the will to live, let alone do anything that needs doing!

I hate myself, and I hate how things are right now!

Picture of my cat, just to try to cheer me up.

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Ive got 24 hours until ward round!

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date October 30, 2019
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Im anxious about it. Last week he said “you need to be on an antipsychotic, but I don’t mind which one as long as its one.”

I choose quetiapine because it’s been ok in the past and I can’t keep being threatened with injection as you can’t inject it.

I took it twice in the last week and managed to go on leave.

I refused to come back so my leave had been removed.

Tomorrow in ward round I’m asking if I can be discharged. If this was a real hospital they would discharge me because I’m not ill and refusing treatment.

My section end on the 10th if he doesn’t discharge me! So I will be going home then. I’m not sure if he can extend it or what could happen if he wants me to still take the antipsychotics?

Anyone know the procedure if he refuses to discharge me?

Can they keep me in?

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I’m so scared.

They are after me I know they are!

I’m not safe anywhere

What can I do?

I need to escape this!

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I hate this medication!

I’m on a lot of medication but I truly hate the amisulpride!

Amisulpride is horrible to my body. It makes me so hungry all the time, never full, it makes me feel horrible and I can’t wait to change back to quetiapine!

This medication just isn’t for me!

I hate it!

It might work for you and it might be ok but for me it isn’t ok!

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Psychiatrist appointment

I went to my psychiatrist appointment. It went well.

I’m changing back to quetiapine not amisulpride, which is good and what I wanted!

He attempted to try to assess a diagnosis for Asperger, but it was clear I don’t have that!

I’ve apparently got a New care co ordinator not that I know who or when I will see them.

Accepted to have physical health check, which is a big deal because they will then have my blood!

He also gave me something to help me sleep. Which is good! I need a good sleep!

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20 days out of psychiatric hospital!

Post author By rosiestar11
Post date September 22, 2019
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Yey,

It’s been 20 days out of the psychiatric hospital!

I was in section two for a relapse in my mental state!

I suffer from emotionally unstable personality disorder, schizophrenia and anxiety!

I thought the mental health team were after my dna so I took steps to make sure that didn’t happen, and I ended up needing hospital treatment and then I was sectioned from there!

I’m home now and so glad to be. It’s a luxury compared to being in hospital.

I do miss it sometimes, I miss the contact and the support, I miss there always being someone there to help!