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Mental health

Cbd bath

I had a bath with cbd!

It was amazing!

I feel so relaxed now. So calm, my body is so smooth and my mind is free!

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Alcohol Mental health

I want yesterday to be the Last day drinking

I have a love hate relationship with alcohol. I love alcohol for the relaxation and break it gives me from life. ButIt makes me have too many more calories, which makes me fatter and gain weight.

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Anxiety beach delusions depression Emotionally unstable personality disorder Emotions hallucinations Health healthy Mental health Music Personality disorder psychosis scared Schizophrenia

I’m creating a Safe space 

This safe space is currently in the bed room although I’m hoping to make it so that it’s easy to move depending on where I feel safe at the time. 

So far it’s got a massive Bean bag, it’s so comfy and it mould a to my body so i feel safe and held. 

I’m adding my blanket to it. I’ve got a really soft big blanket with the writing saying “Rosie, Fearless and Free.” 

I’ve included a Teddy that I got when I went on holiday years and years ago with my family to Florida. It’s simba from the lion king, wrapped in a leaf. It’s so soft and perfect to cuddle. 

The Pillow I’m including is a personalised pillow if my cats, with love typed on to it. 

I’ve got a nightlight cat which is always on at night, it’s got teo settings that it can be on white light which is the option I choose or it can be changing multicoloured. I also have a relaxing water and wave light which you can choose the colour.

Relaxing music, I have a play list that I’m still adding to of songs that help me to relax and be calm. I’m choosing them carefully because it’s very easy to get memory’s and flashbacks of things my brain has related to a song. 

I’m planning on adding Photos that are calming and nice. Especially ones if family and cats. Probably mostly just photos I’ve taken, and when I look at them they take me to a good place. 

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Anxiety Mental health

Candels

Currently i have a candel on most of the time, there are many reasons for this. I feel safe with one on, i know if a candel is on it feeels like spiritually keeps me safe, and protected. 

It brings me warmth looking at the bright warm flame. It helps me to sooth myself and keep myself present, and not to zone out. I love the smells of them, i have many different candel and they all smell different and this is lovely, each room i go in to smells different. I feel anxious most of the time and these candels are helping me to stay in control and calm. 

I used to never put candels on and this was due to the fact of being scared of the fire alarms going off and my cats being burnt. But so far this has happened. The cats have stayed well away from the candel and no fire alarms.