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Am I obsessed with the scales?

I can’t stop weighing myself.

I’m weighing myself at least every hour.

It doesn’t change much but I’m always convinced I would have lost or gained weight.

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I’m disgusting!!!!!

Look at that.

I’m horrible.

I hate myself.

That double chin is so horrible.

I NEED TO LOOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!

I’ve never felt so gross and fat. I’m so embarrassed that I can see how fat I actually am!

I hate myself so deeply, I feel I no longer want to be here. I know that’s not the solution but i hate myself so much that I think I don’t deserve to be here.

I used to be anorexic, I bet you would never guess or think I used to be under weight. I’m now extremely overweight!!!

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1st December… that came along quick.

I’ve got just over a month too loose thee weight. I have to be determined, I won’t loose the weight if I carry on eating and drinking the way I have been. I need to be strong and discipline myself.

I weigh 144.2lbs. I know fat and gross. I will loose this weight.

First good decision was to not have those biscuits this morning. And I’m planning on going to the gym. I can do this.

44 days… Any support will be very much welcomed.

“I believe I can therefore I will!”

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Reached in to overweight!

I hate myself so much.

I’m so fat and no one can tell me otherwise, I know my weight.

I need to make changes but I really would like support, if your going through weight loss please me.

I’m disgusting, I need to keep moving, I don’t want to be lazy.

I don’t deserve anything nice.

Help me!

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Weightloss update

It’s nearly the end of the month, half way through this month I posted about my weight. To try and motivate me to loose more. 

It worked

I can happily say I am now, 

  • 9:5 stone,
  • 131.2 lbs
  • 59.5 kg

I was 9:8 stone, which means I’ve lost around 3 lbs in a week and a bit.

I’m very happy and surprised about this. But I know I can do better and that starts today. Getting off my bum and going to work out. 

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Weight loss plan

My personal weight loss plan… (I will make this work, I have too.) 

Only count calories that I’ve actively burnt. This way I will feel more motivation to keep exercising. 

Do not count resting calories. These burn whether I exercise or not. It’s cheating calculating these. 

Always try to have a -net calorie by the end of the day. Burn more than I eat. 

Your not hungry, you don’t need food, don’t eat!!!

Count every single calorie consumed and burnt.

No late time eating, no snacks. Fill up on water.

Progress pictures of self and scale, pictures of myself in clothes I want to fit. Find clothes that will look good on and buy them smaller. To motivate me to loose weight.

Find clothes out that you want to fit, and take pictures of them. And myself wearing them, so I can see how much better I will look when I’ve lost the weight.

Put weight online, so I’m ashamed and work harder at burning it off.

Try to only weigh myself once a week.

Get at least 6-8 hours sleep.

Eat something tiny to get metabolic burning. Or / and exercise cardio for at least 40 minutes, this will burn my fat through out the day. 

Get up early and exercise, 

Try to complete to do list for the day, keeps me busy and burning calories. 

Always complete step goal for the day. 

Go shopping try on clothes i want to fit. 

Loads of water, water is my best friend. 

Use internet and pictures to not eat, when I get the urges to eat. 

Try more than yesterday, work harder! 

Burn as much calories as possible. 

Focus on loosing weight more than anything else. I have 27 days roughly. 

This is my personal plan. I do not encourage others. 

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Can I trust my scales?

I got on my scales and every time I get on them they say something different. Literally it change each time, between half a stone!!!! 

Yer I’m serious I got on and was gob smacked, It said had “lost” 7lbs, that’s half a stone. Then I got off and on again with them in the same position and it went up and down. Completely changing each time! 

I want to get some new scales, any suggestions on the best/ accurate ones? 

I’ve got dial ones and electronic ones. 

Are ones that do your fat measurement any good?