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Beautiful beach

We’ve arrived on holiday.

I’m with my mum, dad, youngest sister and her friend.

The journey wasn’t too bad. I’m getting on so well with them all so far.

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I’m off on holiday with my family

This was a few days ago but I forgot too post.

I decided I was going on holiday with my family.

I had a good time but I will do a summary later to try and keep all these posts in order.

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I opened my door

I’m on the first floor but I have doors that open, it’s so nice and fresh but I’m so scared of bugs getting in…

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I really stuck out…

I was the only person on the beach wearing a hoodie in 24oc weather.

I can’t help but hide my body. And the hoodie I think covers me and protects me.

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Fell asleep on the beach.


I actually fell asleep on the beach I think I must have been tired. I can’t help but think how much danger I was in from ANYBODY!

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I stick out so much on the beach.

It was a lovely summer day yesterday with the sun shining and I was with my family on the beach.

I was the only one wearing thick clothes and a woolly hat, oh and not to forget sunglasses. I must have looked crazy.

Was it to feel safe and secure? or was it because I was cold?

I don’t think you will ever know because I don’t know why?

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Beautiful butterfly.

I love nature, especially butterfly’s, this was from my parents house garden.

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I have no fashion sense.

Why do I never feel I dress for the occasion.

I never feel pretty.

My sister are dressed nicely, while I got told leggings and a top was too hot and to change, but I’ve changed into the only thing that’s appropriate summer clothes, that’s my clothes that are men’s (I’m a woman) and what I wear to go to bed. I look and feel so out of place.

Later there going in the hot tub, I’m anxious about this because of my scars from self harm. They upset my sister. Which I can understand but it also upsets them when I don’t join in. CANT GET ANYTHING RIGHT!

Thinking shall I just take some medication and try to chill.

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Saturday 12th.

Went to the beach, had a nice stroll in the sun despite the picture looking really stormy (I love taking pictures) and a good chat.

Was just what I needed to get away for a day, especially after the week I've had.

I did get overwhelmed with the voices and everything that was going on in the back ground, but I was able to bring myself back, and feel grounded.