I hate myself so much right now!
I don’t deserve to get anything that I wanted, or had planned too. So that food shop I was planning is not going to happen.
I need to be punished for this weight gain. I need to tell myself it’s not acceptable. I deserve to suffer, I need to exercise as much as I can, and not eat!
I do not deserve the luxury of food, I’ve got enough fat on my body to survive for years.
I’m so angry at myself, I really can’t think of where the weight had come from. I don’t go to the toilet regularly, which could contribute a bit, I wouldn’t say it’s water weight as I didn’t drink water yesterday. Is it because of my medication being upped, is it not enough exercise, I need answers?
I’m so angry and annoyed I need to be punished. I will make sure I get the pain I deserve.
I HATE MYSELF!!