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Truthful update.

Sorry about lack of post, I’m struggling!

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I’m worried about so many things…

  • I worried I’m not good enough for anyone,
  • That I will never achieve the life I want,
  • My weight, being so high.
  • A guy telling me I’m fat, I know I’m fat but being told it is painful!
  • About getting the coronavirus,
  • worried I will never have a family, children,
  • Worried the job won’t go through, like something go wrong,
  • That I don’t do good enough for mums 50th or Mother’s Day,
  • That I should have put more effort in to dads 50th,
  • That I’m going to relapse in to self harm or alcohol,
  • That I might crash my car,
  • That I feel sleepy but don’t feel like I’m getting enough sleep,
  • About money, I am so lost,
  • About how I look,
  • About not finishing my nieces scrap book for her birthday!
  • I will never be good at life or living!
  • I’m a failure!!!!!

So if you got to the bottom of all of that you deserve a medal. 🥇

What can I do to help all these worries? I’m so lost! XxX

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Do I have Breast cancer?

I’m scared.

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What do I do?

My mum asked if I wanted to go away with her my dad and youngest sister for a few days.

I really wanted too….


Now she has said my little sisters friend is coming.

So that makes 5 people in a camper miles away from home, my carer and my cats.

I’m most worried about feeling poorly due to stopping my medication, being left out or them seeing the cuts.

What do I do?

They used to say they gave up inviting me to things because I would never go. It would be so nice to spend quality time with them.

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My poor baby.

Tiger worried me last night, his eye went really red and he want really opening it.

I called the out of hours vets. They says to bring him in, and this was nearly 11pm at night. It costs a fortune, but he is worth it.

They said he has an eye infection, possibly conjunctivitis.

He has to wear the cone so he can’t scratch’s his eyes. He isn’t very happy about it but he is coping.

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What is going on in this world?!?

Why is there so much negativity going on everyday. 

We live once so why kill people and destroy the world. We are so lucky to be here we need to look after the world, there are so many things we can do to make the world a better place and healthier world. There a lot of ways to help the world. 

I just don’t understand why people are so horrible to each other. It’s soul destroying. 

I wish I could live in a world with no harm and no worries. 

It’s getting really horrible. 

If you think about it, it’s a miracle that we are alive, we should be greatful and love our world and each other.

Why come in to this world and set up to kill loads of people, or cause harm to people, you live roughly to 80 years old, why not use that time to help others and make the world a better place for the next generation. 

So I will end it here. Love each other, and make the world a better place!